Saturday, September 30, 2006

It's Saturday, early evening and I am waiting for the hubby to come home. We are going to see "the Guardian". I'm pretty excited because it seems like we never go out. Besides, I look hot and I can't wait for him to see!

I still love to dress up for him. I am wearing a lemon yellow summer sweater and jeans and for once, my hair tuned out really good. Gold, dangly earings and of course, my white birkenstock sandles. Sound lovely? I know the birks don't go but man, I love 'em.

I think it is so important to flirt and be sexy for your spouse. It makes them feel so....I don't know what word to use, but you know what I mean. Hopefully, it will lead to greater things! I love it that I have been married almost 12 years and I still get turned on when he gets out of the shower! I did marry a man who was tall and thin so it's not too hard.

I do hate his safety glasses he always wears but he looks at it as saving money! He has light brown eyes that twinkle when he sniles. Why is it that men can have crows feet and they look great. Women have them and we look old! I love that at 44, he still has all his hair. Not that that is important but it is so soft and beautiful.

He has great bicepts and get really embarrassed when I tell him so. He does not think he has a great body. He has really long legs. (length in jeans is 36) and a tight little bottom. So cute.
He has full lips and tan skin and man, I better stop!

Of course, he as the great personality and sweet spirit but I go for his body any time! If this is too much information, that is too bad! This is what is on my mind at the moment! I hope it is on yours too! (about your own husbands please!)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

I want to write about something I find very frusterating on the subject of judgements. I do believe it is not humanly possible to not judge others. It is a human flaw that I think we are meant to overcome but never will in this life. At least most of us.

The thing that bothers me and that I notice all the time, is that when I talk about what I believe or share my testimony and my feelings about the church or gospel, I am supposedly being preachy. When others and I find this mostly in Utah) want to talk about what they think is right or best or what they believe in, it's not preaching. But I am supposed to stand there and smile and agree and not contradict.

So often, especially in my family, everyone seems so sensitive about being "judged" by the people who are LDS. I find it funny that I feel the same way. It's OK for them to be adament in some belief, but if I am, I am preaching. I am the only active member in my family except for my Dad and possibly one sister. Out of 9 kids, I feel pretty lonely in my beliefs.

I am sure that my sisters will read this and be possibly offended. I don't mean it to be that way. I honestly don't judge them like they think I do. I may not agree with some of the things they do but I think they are all wonderful people and great parents. I guess what I am trying to say is that like Ophelia said, it goes both ways.

People not in the church feel judged for the way they live by the Mormons who live here. So do those of us in it feel judged at times by those who aren't LDS. I don't think there is anything wrong with saying I know the gospel is true for everyone. I can believe that. I have that freedomand that right. I also have the right to my own political opinions and child rearing tactics.

In a large family it is impossible to have a discussion about religion without someone feeling hurt. It is terrible that we do that. It is sad there are people who feel left out on both sides. How do we honestly live as one and at the same time, never feel this way? This is true for all religions around the world. How do we do it and is it even possible? I honestly don't know. I think that is one of the purposes of our existance. Learning to love without boundries.

That's all I can think of to say on the subject for now. I am truly sorry if I have hurt anyone with what I say. But I feel the need to live boldly and quit hiding my passions.

Hurray for cranberries once again!

This is fantastic. Read this article.

Isn't this great!? God gave us everything we need to be healthy if we can just learn what those things are! HA! That's my problem. Lack of education! But I am getting there!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

This morning I am hooked on the song " I like big butts and I cannot lie" The problem is that that is the only line I know!!!

I had a crazy night where I woke up at 2:00am and layed there for an hour wide awake. So I got in my bathtub to read. Love that. I read a book called something like "Mobster to Mormon" I liked it. Fast and easy reading.

I got out and was still wide awake to read the Book of Mormon. I love that book! I feel so good good when I am studying it. Life is such a cycle. Those people were just like us. It is amazing to think about. Those people are crying "from the dust" for us to learn from their mistakes.

I heard something really interresting this week that has been on my mind alot. We were talking about Christ and how so many people who don't believe he was the son of God still think he was a great prophet or teacher. What I heard was this. Christ was either the biggest charlatan and lier that the world has ever had or he was who he said he was. He, himself claimed he was the son of God, the light and truth of the world etc..... He couldn't tell the truth and lie at the same time. Either you believe Him or you don't. Black and white. Very simple to me.

None of the prophets who ever lived claimed to be more than just a messanger. Very interresting. Isn't it.

I want to comment on Ophilia's comment 2 times ago. She said something to the affect that God was not some fortune teller at the fair that tells us all that we should do. In a sense, I completely disagree. He is the ultimate fortune teller. The trick is to understand what he wants us to do and have the faith to follow it. We have free agency AND we have a destiny. We have the chance to live up to great potentials. Many are called but few are chosen.

Prophets all through time have predicted or seen the future. I believe some things are meant to be. It is our job to petition the Lord to find out what he wants us to do. I do think he cares whether or not I have another baby. I am his daughter and I need his advice. This child could be a future prophet or world leader or great composer and a average mother who raises great kids. I don't not believe it is just up to me.

It may not always look this way, but I try to do EVERYTHING in my life for HIM. He is my way of life. I don't make ANY important desicions without his approval. That is why I am so determined to get an answer I understand.

For those of you on a need to know basis, you need to know that I know Ophilia very well. I want her to understand why I write the things I do. It is not because I am always weak and helpless (but in the grand scheme of things, we are.)

I just want to say the I love the gospel and I know it is true. I know it is true for everyone. People may or may not want to believe in it and that is their free agency but some things are true whether or not you believe them.

Monday, September 25, 2006


I had an epiphany this morning. I pray in my head quite frequently through the day. It is kind of a monologue that goes on and on. I was actually talking to HF about what Yolanda had said in her last comment to me.

The answer I got was very clear and basically this. I am never going to find what I am searching for if I keep in the same direction I have been going. I will never feel complete and happy if I can't make me proud of myself. This is harder to explain than I thought it would be.

I need to be a wife and mother that I can look up to. I need to be more loving and helpful with my kids and hubby, I need to stop swearing and snapping ect... These things make me ashamed of myself and if I want to feel good about who I am I need to come in line with the kind of person that God knows I am capable of being.

The answer was so much easier and clear to understand when I got it but that is because spirit to spirit conversing is different I guess. Anyway, that is the gist of it. I need to quit complaining, quit being lazy, stop wataching so much tv and keep all the bad stuff to myself and HF. No one wants to hear how hard my life is. Theirs are hard enough as it is. Everyone's life has hardship.

We need to strengthen eachother and lift eachother up. It's so simple and yet I lose sight of that. If we are doing what we should, everthing will automatically line up from nutrition, exercize, time, work, and babies to loving our spirits and wanting to do and be better.

I need to see myself through God's eyes. Everything is OK out there. Baby steps. The biggest thing to remember for me is to pray every day. Earnestly. I have quit doing that and I wonder what is wrong with my life? HELLO!! Have I been studying the scriptures everyday? No. HELLO! Why do I feel frusterated with life????HELLO!!!!!! Isn't it obvious? I had cut myself off from the one person who really can help. I keep thinking I can solve my own problems. But that is just part of my human experience. I keep praying these luke warm prayers and expect an easy answer. Guess it's not working that way. I don't think it can for anyone.

I wish I could astral project and go home once in a while.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Baby, oh baby

Can I just say that I hate that I don't get an average of 10 comments a post like Lisa. Granted, I am just peon in the blogging world but there it is!

Tell me what you think of this.... I am wondering if I should have another baby. Now, don't freak out like my husband did when I mentioned this to him, but , It has actually been on my mind for about a year.

I remember thinking "well, I guess i'm not going to have any more kids" after I was accepted back to school. But with the plan changing, I wonder if I should or am supposed to or something.

At times I think, "what in the hell are you thinking, melissa!!!!!!!!" Why would I want another one? Well, I am a dang fine mom but there are other things to consider like financial burdon, a year of misery, and then at least 3 years of bondage and diapears!

Yet, I keep thinking about it. I have prayed about it but I don't know if I am getting a real answer. I wonder if I am making up answers in my mind. One day is yes, the next day is no. What the crap is that? This is huge for me and us as a family and I want a definate, obvious answer that I wll recognize. Maybe HF doesn't care either way. Why would't he? I am just so up in the air.

I thought maybe I would give it one year. If I don't get pregnant, well, then it wasn't meant to be. I don't get pregnant that easily so If it were meant to happen, then it will in that time. What do you think of that logic?

I also think it is stupid that I am even having this debate with myself. 5 years ago, I would have just done it. Now I feel old and my clock is ticking. I am 36 and don't want to be having babies in my 40's like my mom did.

Well, let me know what you think. I need some deep seeded wisdom here folks.

Friday, September 22, 2006


My dad came in to town last night. It is so good to have him around. I hate it that he lives so far away.

I feel like my kids hardly know him and so when he does come this way for a visit, nothing else takes precedence.

I am keeping the kids home from school today to be able to spend the day with Grandpa and their step grandma. They don't call her that but I just wanted to clarify.

Dad lives in Washington and comes to Utah where both of their kids mostly live. They are going to Arizona to spend the winter and to be with his sister who is dying of cancer.

Anyway, I adore my dad. He asked me last night if I have very many good memories of my childhood or if I have a favorite good memory of my childhood. I have THOUSANDS! I named everyone that I could think of. It made him cry.

I don't know about the rest of the kids, but I feel very close to my dad. Some of the other kids have complaints because he had a violent temper when we were growing up. Mostly with the older kids. I do have some bad memories of terrible things that happened but I have more good ones.

My dad worked hard and was married to my mom for....well, until she died. They did not have a great marriage. He's a red and she was a blue for those of you who know what that is. Blood, sweat and tears. They should probably not married eachother but the got 8 kids out of it!

My dad gave me MANY beautiful blessings that I can remember to this day. He taught me to fish and camp and to love Christmas in spite of himself. He always thought of it as a "halmark holiday"!

He has faults like anyone else does and demons he probably wishes would die but we all do and I have such a great appreciation for him after having my own kids. I guess the thing that is most important is that I KNOW he loves me. He cares what happens and is very concerned about me.

He has become a very tender man in his old age and I think my mom would love who he married. She is a yellow, so they get along like peaches and cream. She has molded hin into the man my mom wishes she would have had in him. It is amazing to see and sad too. She deserved a man who adored her. Don't get me wrong. They loved each other but it was not like the relationship I have with my husband.

All in all. I believe he has done the best he could with what he was raised with and with what he had.

I am so grateful for all he has taught me and for all our great talks and for all the mornings I got to snuggle with him on Sunday mornings. Here's to you Dad!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Good morning! It is beautiful here today. It's not too hot and the sun is shining. I am feeling a little sad that it will end soon. I wish autumn would last for a few months instead of a few weeks!

I was watching the today show and they had on a little segment about all the toxins that we are surrounded by. They did not mention , however, all the toxins in our shampoos and skin care that we use but it was good.

I just learned from my little sister that she did not have her baby immunized until she was two. Most other countries do this anyway. I asked her why, (beacause I never would have questioned it when my kids were babies) and she has quite a few friends with children that are having problems and they can trace it back to the time of their immunizations. She wanted her children immune but to not have the problems that can stem from it.

I think she is very wise and I wish I would have done the same. I wrote a little while ago about how I totally do not believe in immunizing any more. That is not totally true. I do believe in the immunizations. I just DO NOT like the fact that they use a form of murcury as the preservative. There has got to be something else they can use. Anyway, I just wanted to clarify that.

I am still trying to eat mostly organic which is alot harder that it would seem. There is nowhere to by it here close by. The cost is not an object since I have found that I actually spend the same or less on groceries because I am not buying the crap I used to like gram crackers, gold fish, cold cereal, instant, in the package food. It does take more effort but my body feels so much better.

I also REALLY love the organic skin care and shampoo I use. I had to get used to it at first but my skin has never been softer and my hair has never looked and felt better. Wierd.

My problem now is that I sell a skin care product that I no longer use. Minor detail. It's a great skin care product but they use ingrecients that ALL the companies use. Parabens, laurel sulphates, and propylene gloycol. All are chemicals which are toxic and build up over time in our bodies. I just can't bring myself to keep putting it on my skin. Ignorance was bliss.

So, if any of you want some skin care at half off, come and get it! I don't want to say what brand it is because I don't want to get in trouble. Not that I think I will but better safe than sorry!

I wasn't doing a whole lot of selling anyway and I will keep it going for my few regulars. I feel like such a granola girl and it throws me.

What I am really in a quandry about is my hair! I have LOTS of gray that I have kept religiouly covered for 10 years! Do you know what they put in hair dyes???? That may be my one exception. Whether or not I am a granola girl, I do have a little vanity still running in my veins!

Friday, September 15, 2006

Complete the thought.

Complete the thought...

Never again in my life:will I drive a clutch car! Terrible on your back and bad on hills, at a stop light!

When I was five:I would run away from school every day. I crossed a 4 lane street and would sit on the curb in front of my house!

High School was: A necessary evil.

I will never forget: The first time I had sex. Don't get me wrong, but I did think "So this is what it feels like. This isn't that fabulous". Believe me, it is now. It just took us some time!

I once met: John Bytheway. I fell madly in love. Wrote him a letter that I wanted to meet him! He did write back. He was very flattered and very nice but that's all it came to! ( I was NOT married at the time, just so you know)

There’s this girl I know who:will be famous someday! Her name is Madison. I used to baby sit her and she babysat my kids. She is a model now and was on the show of Donald Trump's as a model. Cool huh?

By noon I’m usually: Ready for bed again! I get up so dang early!

Last night I: watched "grey's anatomy" and tried to seduce my exhausted husband. would you believe it if I said he rejected my advances????

Next time I go to church:I pray I will not be called out from sunday school to change a poopy diaper for once!

What worries me most: That my children will be molested or hurt in some way.

When I turn my head right, I see: my big, beautiful bed.

When I turn my head left, I see: the wall with my calendar and Lance Armstrong poster!

You know I’m lying when: I can't look at you straight! I have guilt written all over my face!

If I was a character written by Shakespeare, I’d be: Some stupid fairy with an extremely small part!

By this time, next year: I should be running at least a 5k without stopping!

A better name for me would be
: Gloria. I don't know. It just fits!

I have a hard time understanding: Why people don't like me (when they don't) . I'm one of the funnest people I know!

If I ever go back to school I’ll: have hit the jackpot!

You know I like you if: I call you and want to go play!

Darwin, Mozart, Slim Pickens & Geraldine Ferarro are: Playing poker in paradise?

Take my advice, NEVER:Go to the bathroom during Sacrament meeting! You will get your dress tucked in your underware for sure! Especially if you are the chorister!

My ideal breakfast is: B's fried potates, scrambled eggs and sausage. yummy!

A song I love, but do not have is: anything by Black eyed peas. Like all their songs. Love 'm but I really don't want my kids to.

If you visit my hometown, I suggest
: You visit the scandinavian festival! SO fun as a kid! It's in Eugene, Oregon every summer.

Why won’t anyone: Die and leave me a fortune?

If you spend the night at my house, DO: not plan on sleeping in!

I’d stop my wedding for: A tornato! and that's it!

The world could do without: weeds. What is the purpose anyway? Hello?

I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: lick my baby's poopy diapers!

My favorite blonde is
: Yolanda, well, she used to be blonde!

Paperclips are more useful than
: I don't know. There are alot of little things that are useful when you need them but not at any other time!

San Diego means: Sun and fun! Only been there once but it was beautiful!

I stole this from Chronicler. You can steal it from me too if you want to!


I love the weather today. There is something to be said for thunder rolling across the mountains. I am sitting here on my bed watching the rain poor down to water my newly planted flowers.

The trees are blowing in the wind and the whole world is quiet. It reminds me of the poem my Gram wrote.

Most people love the sun
but I love most of all a cool grey sky
with clouds that trail along the sides of hills
like skirts of quaker brides.

Such days, when fields grown strangly still,
keep their secrets, good or ill,
and all unloveliness is vain
behind a blowing veil of rain.

My Gram grew up in the northwest for most of her life. Her life could have been a movies, it was so full. She worked on a ranch where she met her husband, had 5 kids, lost her hunsband to a an accident when she was 35, raised her kids alone by having borders, getting up at 4:00am in the morning with her oldest son to pick onions for money and back home to make a big breakfast for her borders.

She was beautiful and hard working and always gave, gave, gave. I have never know a more selfless woman. She raised her 3 nephews and us kids half my life. She took a walk every day. Could bake an apple pie to die for and mad EVERYTHING from scratch of course. I used to love to go on walks with her. She would take a walk every day.

She told the best bedtime stories and there was never a night that went by that she didn't tell us a "John and Mary" story or her famous "mouse" stories. I slept with her ever night and she was the one who taught me to pray,. I said the "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord, my sould to take. God bless daddy and mommy".... an on and on.

This is a woman who shaped my childhood almost more than anyone else. Her birthday is October 17 and I have thought alot about her. She would be 102 this year I think. I feel her nearby lately and I just want you and her to know that I treasure her memory and that she lives on in my children.

I pray that God can make me the kind of loving and patient woman that she was. I wrote a song for her on my guitar a few years ago. These are the words:

Firelight dances on the walls and the windows
reflections and shadows play on your face.
An antique piano is guarding the moment,
with an old family picture in delicate lace.

Stories of romance, horses and laughter,
walks in the evening, holding your hand.
Learning and loving, laughing together
are the things that remind me of you in the end.

A low melow voice that would rock me so slowly
a face lined with stories that you loved to tell
a spirit so sweet and soft as a flower
she made me a dreamer, she knew me so well.

And I will always remember
and I'll tell your stories again and again.
And you will live on forever
in the hearts of your daughters
your spirit will dwell.


Here's to you grandma! I love you!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Today, is a new day. I am actually feeling fine about the school stuff. I really feel like something is around the corner. I don't know what or when exactly, but I feel it there.

I thought it was school, but now, I know it is something else. It's ok. I know I am not down here stumbling blindly in the dark. The world is full of possibilities. I'm not in the least bit worried.

The boys are starting karate today. I went to watch and now I want to do it too. The adult class is wed. and Fri. at 6:00 which is a bad time for me so I don't think I will be able to but maybe I'll just have the boys teach me! They really love it!

I took a karate class in college and loved it. I was actually one of the best in the class. Hard as that is to believe. I'd love to start again.

Well, I'm hungry, so I've got to go. Think I'll make tacos for dinner.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

I am so sad this morning. My eyes are burning from crying and feeling a little lost. My dream of being a teacher will not happen unless someone dies and makes me rich.

I got a letter from the counciler this morning, and, well, I'll just let you read it.

Terry, you may want to talk to her about the realities of starting a new major at this point in her academic career. She has 143 attempted hours and I don't know how she's planning to pay for this, but financial aid will cut her off at 145 hours. At 170 hours she will be hit with the Surcharge (have to pay out-of-state tuition). She hasn't even got an associates degree based on what is posted to her transcript and absolutely NOTHING toward and English Teaching major (which is 52 credits). She would also have to have a teaching minor and unfortunately USU doesn't offer a Music Teaching minor so that is a minimum of 18 more credits if she chooses the shortest possible minor. Then she will need to do the certification classes which are another 35 credits. (Total so far = 105 credits!) Again, this doesn't even take in to account the missing math class that she needs and the CI's, QI, DSS, and DSC, that is if we can squeak by with 2 credit breadth classes in some of the areas. (The College of HASS is getting more strict about students meeting the minimum number of credits within the breadth categories.) ...As I said, to be fair to Melissa I cannot, in good conscience, encourage her to embark on a new major at this point in her academic career. She needs to finish the one that she started or find a shorter major unless she is COMPLETELY AWARE of the strong possibility of the financial burden that it may hold for her. I don't think that the cost that she will pay for a teaching degree will pay off for her in the end. Lisa

Well, that about sums it up. Where God closes a door, he opens a window but I'm not feeling any breeze yet.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Good morning folks! It's Free Friday once again and I just finished working out downstairs. I did take a nice soak in the tub too. I love my life.

This picture is one I took out my back door. I love where I live. I feel so serene and peaceful here. I am feeling so blessed today.

I have been doing this colon cleanse Kevin Trudeau recommends. I really like it. I am never hungry and I have lost a pound a day doing it. This morning I had a fruit smoothy I made out of peaches, strawberries and apples. It was so good. So many of the diets I have done say "no fruit" type stuff. This is not a diet but is helping in that area!

I am not a vegetarian but this cleanse is all fruits and veggies. No meat, dairy or anything that clogs the system. I can do it anywhere from 3 to 7 days. I can't even begin to describe how good my body feels already. I feel lighter. Not in poundage but something else. I don't know how to describe it.

Everyone desreves this feeling. I know there are women out there that need to change their health habits. They know they do. Why don't they? I think it is because they don't think they deserve it. You DO deserve to feel and look beautiful. You DESERVE it! Plus, you CAN do it. So many women don't think they are capable. YOU ARE! It's a choice. You can change your life. Why don't you want to? Because You don't deserve it? Silly !!!! You are loved and needed! Please love yourselves enough too.

I was watching Oprah the other day and there was a lady on that went from over 500 lbs down to 2 something and how it changed her life and all the things she worried about from worrying that she'd break a chair if she sat in it to not fitting in an airplane were gone! They filmed her in all her amazement doing things she couldn't do before

What changed in her? What made the difference? I don't know. But she deserves to feel sexy which she says she does now. Men flirt with her. She doesn't get tired and her feet and legs don't hurt anymore. It made me cry. What an inspiration she is to so many people. Especially women.

I really feel that God sent us here to succeed! Not to fail.! He wants us to be happy and free of the guilt and misery we make for ourselves. Some things can't be helped but ALOT of things can be. I don't know why I am writing this today but I fell compelled. I am not alway good at loving myself but today, I am!

I hope you all have a fabulous weekend! Love to you all.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

I'm tagged

    How often do you blog? I read blogs every day. I blog maybe 2-4 times a week.

    2. Online Alias:Don't have one. I'm boring as hell.

    3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? Yes. At SUU. She was a polygamist gal. My age. We had to pick partners and the girls behind were being rude. I picked her and then turned around and loudly, enough to embarrass them, told them they should be ashamed of themselves and how rude to act the way they were. It shut them up for a long time.

    4. What do you do most often when you are bored? Read. Watch tv. I really like “Charmed lately. Sick, isn't it?

    5. When bathing, which do you wash first? My left arm and armpit, then the right and them I shave them. Them my chest and belly and legs. My behind last. Too much info?

    6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? I don't know. Never kept track

    7. What color looks best on you? White. Love white. Love black too. Red is also a good one.

    8. What’s your favorite drink? Milk. I know, a little juvenile, but I love the stuff.

    9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? I believe in life after death. I think hell is mostly a place we make for ourselves here on earth. I think everyone will be happy wherever they go except those who were REALLY naughty!

    10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? It's about the same I think.

    11. What was your favorite subject in school? In college I loved anatomy. Still do. In high school, I loved music stuff. Choir, Jr high, NOTHING!! Elementary, PE definitely!

    12. Are you a perfectionist? No way! Thank heavens! I have a hard enough life as it is.

    13. Do you spend more than you can afford? Of course not! My husband thinks I do though!

    14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have love before? Oh, the pain! But yes, I still reminisce sometimes.

    15. Do you consider yourself creative? Yes, but I don't know how to be. I think I block myself. I tell myself I can't do it and when I do, it turns out great.

    16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? Sometimes.

    17. Do you donate time or money to charities? Yes, but lately, not often.

    18. Have you recently done something that you’ve criticized others for doing? Oh yes, who hasn't? I can't think of anything at the moment but I'm sure Lisa could!

    19. What’s on your mind? Taking H to preschool. I need to leave in 15 min. I love this time a year. I love the way it smells. I am big on smells.

    I tag: Yolanda. I need something different to read on your blog!!! I need you to post something new every couple of days. OK?

    Ophilia: you know who you are! Get with it!

    Sister K. Stop being silent! I want to hear your thoughts too.

    Lisa got the rest I think. I love our little blogging family!

This book has been a facinating ride. Yolanda send over the address for the consumer report on Kevin Trudeau. Very interresting. I wondered why every comment was so negative. Don't they ever print good comments?

I know there have to be more people out there who, like me, have had a good experience. When someone is so vehemently attacked like this, it really makes me think they are innocent.

It reminds me alot of Joseph Smith to be honest. He was called all sorts of names. Accused of lying, stealing, whoremongering, sexual addiction and a host of other things you all already know about. No one wanted to read his gold bible that he made up and his reputation was forever tainted in the world out there. And still is. That is amazing to me.

Now, I don't know if all the government cover ups are true but it wouldn't surprise me. I have not read his first book. I am reading the second. He was accused of not putting answers in his books. That is rediculus. There ARE answers. The truth is, most people are not willing to do what he recommends.

Most people are not willing to quit putting sh-- in their bodies. He putt his "infamous chapter six" in the second book and it tells you step by step how to start. Most people don't want to quit eating sugar, white flour, eating fast food, sweeteners and meat sold in stores. The meat in our stores is so full of hormones an other crap that young girls are developing more rapidly than ever before. I knew that before I read his book.

Most people don't want to do yoga, and other things to reduce stress. He even talks about the importanace of prayer and praying every day and the power it has to heal.

He has you do cleanses that clean out your bowels, liver, kidneys ect....

He talks about how cancer has been proven not to be able to live in an oxygen rich inviroment and the more alkaline our bodies become, the less chance we'll get and keep cancer. The toxins in our bodies are what make us very, very acidic.

It is basically the word of wisdom broken down in detail. God doesn't want us to be sick and then stuffing ourselves full of drugs that make us more sick!. It really is common sense. I think the evil forces out there don't want people to be healthy or get better. It's all about money. You can buy anything in this world with money. Sound familiar?

I share this because I believe he is right. Our bodies are temples. We NEED to be more concerned about what we put on ourselves and feed ourselves. The last quote I'll give you today is this, "don't put it on your skin if it can't go in your mouth". Our skin absorbes everything we put on it. It makes sense that if you can't eat it, chances are it's not good for you!

Enough of this soap box. I am getting a head ache! Got to go makes lunches and breakfast! I sure love you all! Have a fabulous day!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

I am about to discuss a very conroversial subject here. I can not in good faith keep my mouth shut.

I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me. I truly believe in the phrase "ignorance is bliss".

I happened to check out the book, "More natural cures revealed" by Kevin Trudeau. I have been facinated and appauled by what I have read. I have not just read this book, I have been researching what he talks about on the internet.

He talks about alot of things but what I want to focus on here is immunizations. I will say it here and now. I no longer believe in immunizations. I am not afraid or embarrased to say this.

Immunizations contain a preservative called "Thimerosal". It is 50% murcury in weight. It is linked to all kinds of disabilities in children. If you want to read a little about it, here is just one of the web sites on it. OK, I can't get it to work. Just google it.

I have been putting poison in my my kids since the day they were born. There are more kids with cancer today than EVER before. Do we wonder why? How can I in good conscience give my kids something that I know is bad for them. Plus, more children are injured or dead because of the immunizations we use today.

The government does not care. The cancer industry is big business for them! Kevin talks about quite a few "cures" for cancer. Natural remedies that have worked. He is constantly being sued buy the Federal trade commision and Pharmicuetical companies for what he says. He has been aquitted every time.

Don't believe me about this. Or him. Look it up!

He also talks about an ingredient in all our beauty supplies that is a cancer causing agent. It is "propylene glycol". "They" know this and other chemicals are dangerous and yet are still used. This particular ingredient has been used since the beginning in the early 1900's. It was grandfathered which is why it is still used! We put this poison on our faces, in our hair, on our skin ect... Have you ever wondered why cancer is at an all time high? Why? With all the technology we have. Go into your bathroom today is see that it is in your shappo and conditioner, you skin care. The "laural sulfate" ingredient is also caner causing. It is in quite a few bathroom items too.

The pharmicuetical companies don't want a cure. The cancer industry is a billion dollar indrustry. They'd go bankrupt if there was a world wide cure!

Don't believe me. Look it up. Read this guys books and then research it.

I will not continue to live like I have. I cannot in good conscience put this stuff on me or my family any more. I am going organic. I do not feel like I am going over board. I feel like I should stand up for what is right and protect my family.

I will no longer follow blindly, like a sheep.