I feel like I am back in the saddle again. Back to the normal routine of things. I got on the treadmill this morning for the first time in a month and it felt GOOD! I took it easy though. I only went a mile just to test the waters.
Lisa and I are going to start swimming laps in the EARLY morning. I am excited and so NOT excited at the same time. I love to swim and I know swimming is one of the all around best sports for staying fit that there is but I LOVE my sleep!
My little Heidi is addicted to Spongebob. Before we had the dish I remember thinking that Spongebob looked so stupid and had no idea what the hype was all about. OK, I admit it, I love Spongebob too. It is the ONLY cartoon that I will watch with my kids. I do not know what it is but there's something there! Maybe I am just sick! SICK! SICK! Maybe the surgery knocked a screw loose but I did like Spongebob before the surgery so I really have no excuse!
1. Where/How did you meet? Bry was my older brothers best friend. I met him when I was sixteen at Bear Lake when he and my bro met up with us there for a camp out. He was sitting in the back of their truck in a lawn chair drinking a beer. I was not impressed.
2. How long have you known each other? Going on 21 years! Wow! That is a long time!
3. How long after you met did you start dating? Real dating? Just before my mission we had gone out a few times. He really liked me. I did not feel the same. It was after my mission, I had been home 2 years and it just clicked.
4. How long did you date before you were engaged? 1 day. Yep. It's true but we had known each other for a very long time. I just knew it was right.
5. How long was your engagement? Almost 2 months. We were going to have a longer one but we wanted my Mother to be at the wedding and she was dying from breast cancer. She missed it my 18 days.
6. How long have you been married? 12 years.
7. What is your anniversary? Our first anniversary is Feb 18, 1995. Our sealing anniversary is Feb 14, 2004.
8. How many people came to your wedding reception? To be honest, I don't know. It wasn't a huge one since my mom had just died and we had flown to Oregon to bury her and there just wasn't time or money to do a big one.
9. What kind of cake did you serve? Would you believe it if I told you that I can't remember all the flavors. I know part of it was spice cake. I love that.
10. Where was your wedding? At my sister's house in Bountiful. It was beautiful on the inside!
11. What did you serve for your meal? We did not have a meal! Is was a small reception with little snacks . They were good though.
12. How many people were in your wedding party? We didn't really have a wedding party. Just parents. I never have like that huge line thing. All my sisters were honorary bridesmaids though. Bry's brother was his best man.
13. Are you still friends with them all? I certainly hope so!
14. Did your spouse cry during the ceremony? Yes he did! Isn't he great! He cried when I sang to him!
15. Most special moment of your wedding day?I think it was when I sang for him. It was so....I don't know, I can't describe it. I sang "For You" by John Denver. The words are so beautiful.
16. Any funny moments? I can't think of any at the moment. We were married by my student ward bishop who I adored and he was so fun. He made it really good.
17. Any big disasters? Nope. It all went smoothly. I loved walking down the isle with my Dad. I cried at that point.
18. Where did you go on your honeymoon? We went a a bed and breakfast for a couple of days and then in July, we went to Alaska for a week. That was wonderful!
20. If you were to do your wedding over... I would change nothing. I loved it. It was perfect.
21. What side of the bed do you sleep on?Right now, I am on the left side but I have slept on both throughout our marriage.
22. What size is your bed? It's a king size and I LOVE it. It's a big heavy log bed that I can hardly move by myself!
23. Greatest strength as a couple? We support each other completely. I adore him and he adores me.
24. Greatest challenge as a couple? Agreeing on fun things to do. We are total opposites in our interests.
25. Who literally pays the bills? He earns the money, I pay the bills. I just do in online. Fast and easy. He doesn't care how I spend the money. He figures I know how much there is and that's it. It works.
26. What is your song? "She drives me crazy" I know it sounds like a joke but that's our song.
27. What did you dance your first dance to? I don't remember. It is like pulling teeth to get him to dance!
28. Describe your wedding dress: You can see it here. I rented it and I loved it. I felt like a queen for a day.
29. What kind of flowers did you have at your wedding? Roses mostly. I love all kinds though.
30. Are your wedding bands engraved? No. Bry doesn't even wear his. In his line a work it's actually dangerous to. I keep it in my jewelry box.
31. How old were you when you got married? I was 24 and he was 31
I had a request to explain how I incorporate the alkaline diet into my lifestyle. To be honest, I am still learning about it but it has not been a hard transition as I have been changing my habits for a while now. I'll tell you what I do and what I don't do. I am lucky that I have a husband who supports me and doesn't mind the changes. I have some friends who tell me their husband would never eat this or that and who make a big deal about changes.
First I will tell you what I don't buy. I never but pop, chips, donuts, or junk food of any kind. I do get those things on occasion for a camp out though. Normally, they are never to be found. I never buy white bread. I have been buying whole grain bread for so long that my kids don't even know the difference. I am now buying Winder dairy bread and it has no preservatives or anything yucky in it. I never buy crackers or gold fish anymore because those things have terrible stuff in them. The only "junk food" I have in my house is corn or tortilla chips to eat with salsa and cold cereals like wheat chex and bran flakes. My kids don't complain because I don't give them a choice. They can go hungry if they prefer.
I do buy tons of snacks that I love. I am not rigid about what they eat in the house like I am with myself but I only make available to them the things I want them to have. Like right now, I have apples, plums, grapefruit, bananas, cantaloupe, honeydew, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, and a huge salad with lots of good veggies in it in the fridge. I only make salads with Green or red leafy lettuce. I never use iceberg lettuce. That is a complete waste of money in my opinion. I have green onions, tomatoes, cucumbers, peppers, and anything else I feel like in my salad so no matter when I am home, if I am hungry, I have salad to eat at least. I always keep soaked almonds in the fridge. They are wonderful and really fill me up.
Fruit should not be eaten with any other food as it needs to be digested alone to get it's full benefits. I love eggs and they are not as acidifying as other proteins so I frequently have them.
For dinner last night we had baked potatoes and a huge salad. At first, I thought I had to add a lot of other fillers to keep everyone happy like pasta or biscuits (since I don't cook meat as often) but have found that everyone gets full on the salad a potatoes! I have also found that my kitchen is so much cleaner without all the meat mess. Weird.
I had heard in the past that you should only combine certain foods. I thought it was a bunch of baloney! It's not after all. Meant need a very acidic environment to digest and usually do that in the stomach. Most veggies need an alkaline environment to digest and that is usually done in the small intestine. When you combine these food, it slows down the digestion of both an causes fermentation and putrefication of the food. This in turn causes a lot of gas and acid reflux.
Since I have been watching what foods I combine, I have almost no gas and that gas I do have never smells!! Believe it or not! and I never have heartburn anymore.
The foods you can combine in a good way are:
Non-starchy with carbs (that's like salad and pasta) Non-starchy with proteins Non- starchy with fats
proteins and fats fats and carbs
eat fruits on their own and never combine if you can help it, proteins and carbs.
Now this cannot always be avoided, just be careful about it.
I am not anal about this . A couple of nights ago I was so tired, it was 6 pm and I had started nothing so I just made pancakes. I truly believe if I follow this way of eating, I will be much better for it. I already am but I do not beat myself up when I eat something I "shouldn't" I just start over. I Do allow myself a treat once in a while of the old things I love like ice cream or chips etc... but it is few and far between.
There was something else I was going to say but I can't remember what it was. Oh, If there is something you don't really like and think , "I could never switch to that" YES YOU COULD! It's all about habits. Like switching to skim. You get to where you like it, then prefer it. I didn't used to like wheat bread. I had to force myself to eat it but I had to since I had quit buying white! Be disciplined! You can do it it! Be firm with yourselves and your kids and explain the whys to them so they are on board. They will get used to it too. You will feel so good.
I have really put some time into studying this alkaline diet. I have lost 4 pounds in the last week since I have been following it. I am not doing it to lose weight but that has been an added benefit.
I have learned that most of the diseases and ailments we experience are because our bodies are too acidic. One of the things that most got to me was the beverages we drink. This is what one article says.
Pure water is neutral as far as the acid goes. black tea (any kind) (not herbal) is 600-800 times more acidic than water. Coffee (any kind) is 700-1000 times more acidic than water. Soda,(pop) (any kind. regular or sugar free) is 50,000 time more acidic than water.
Do you know where your body parks away the acids so they can't damage your body? In fat cells. Your body HAS so have the alkalinity level (ph) in the range of 7.36-7.37 ALL THE TIME or you will die. It will do anything it can to keep it there, including damaging other areas of the body.
Your body will create cholesterol to neutralize the acids, which is one reason some people have such high cholesterol. It bleaches iron from red blood cells, it pulls calcium from your bones, and it steals potassium from muscle tissues because these things can help neutralize.
The "diet" is not a vegetarian one. It actually follows the word of wisdom exactly. I sometimes have a hard time disciplining myself to follow it but I have felt better since I have.
I don't mean to sound like I am on a soap box but I want to get it out there that there are things we can do to help ourselves. I have felt very strongly for myself that it need to be more diligent with my health.
A good site is www.AcidAlkalineDiet.com You can look up quite a few sites on alkaline diets.
I just had an interesting experience. I young guy from Turkey just tried to pick me up on "skype". I was just sitting here working, and my skype came up and this guy is trying to get me to answer and I just ignore him. I even decline twice to talk to him and finally, I give up and say, I am a married woman with 4 kids, 4 horses, 3 dogs, 3 cats and 20 chickens. Do you still want to talk? I thought that would put a damper on things. It didn't. He still wanted to chat. I chatted for a few minutes because it was a boon to my self esteem but he is only 25, can hardly speak English but thinks I have beautiful eyes.
Anyway, he wants me to put him on my contact list. How weird. Some people are so lonely. It's too bad that they have to reach out on the computer. Or maybe it's a good thing for those people who are shy. Who am I to judge?
I went to a wedding shower this weekend with about 50 women who were all my age but mostly single. I'm sure most have happy lives but a piece of me felt bad for them that they have not been able to experience kids and a wonderful man and some never will in this life. What did I ever do to get the perfect picture? My life is pretty much just what I wanted. Why do I have the dream come true but most people in the world don't? It makes me sad to think about and yet I feel so blessed too.
I don't have a perfect life and the people in my life drive me crazy at times and I am sure I do the same for them, yet, I wouldn't change a thing.
We are all on a different path. At a different level of learning. I love people and I love that we are all different but I do love living around people who believe like I do. I love "my people". I know a lot of people who don't have much good to say about "Mormons" but I have to say. I love em! We are not a perfect people as a whole, but I do believe that we are trying to be. At least on my part, I am. I know I fall short and am not always a good example of what I should be, but I love the gospel and I know it's true.
My family does not like it when I say "I know" about things. Why can't I know? Why should I water it down? I was sitting in church yesterday thinking about that. I never say anything that is concrete in my mind around my family because it usually gets shot down. The older I get though, the less I care about that. My new goal is to be unafraid to talk about what I feel is right or true.
I thought I'd let you know, I'm fine. The cat scan came out normal and the appt. with the surgeon was really good. He does a lot of surgeries in that area and said he's seen intestines look like mine. It's not common but there is nothing wrong with it. It's not cancerous or anything. Plus, since I have NO symptoms in that area, he's not worried. Neither am I.
What a relief! You have no idea. It was a very stressful day and the gal who tried to put in my IV for the cat scan (they put some drug in to add contrast) poked me until I cried. I was so embarrassed. Finally the main guy came and did it in one try.
I can tell a difference in my body with the drugs in it. It feels yucky. Like I used to feel when I ate like crap. It is a huge difference since I had started eating really healthy. I can't wait to feel healthy again with no crap in my system. Well, crap that' s NOT supposed to be there!
Anyway, for now it's over, over over!!!! YEA!!! I'm FREE!!
I saw my new doctor yesterday and he is wonderful! He did want me to go see a GI specialist and have a cat scan done which I am going to do this morning. I am in the process of drinking that lovely barium smoothy!
He also asked if I had had the andometriosis taken care of during the surgery as most surgeons will laser it when they find it. I told him I didn't know because my other doctor never had mentioned it.
So I called the surgeon who did it and he got really defensive about it like I was accusing him of being negligent. He said " of course I took care of it!" He also asked my why I had seen this other doctor and why I hadn't gone to who he had recommended. I told him he hadn't recommended anyone. Then he told me NOT to listen to this other doctor and to only listen to him! I could not believe he would say that! Then I began to ask him about birth control to control the endometriosis and all of a sudden, the secretary was on talking to me. He had hung up without even saying good bye or anything! I was in the middle of a sentence! He had just written himself off in my book. I am not going to have anything to do with him anymore! Howarrogant! How rude!
So that's all foldks I'll let you know the results since I love baring my soul to you!
We are in the process of potty training. It's going well, actually, but we have had a couple of accidents. But he is finally getting it. YEA!!!
I am feeling REALLY good today. I attribute it to a few things. 1. I am taking iron, in liquid form and that has been huge for my energy levels. 2. I am detoxing, 3. My sweet neighbor who is a Master Herbalist, gave me some tea stuff to put on my incision with heat, and the same thing in capsule form that rebuilds muscle and tissues. This is my 3rd day using it and I notice a HUGE difference in the pain that is NOT there anymore. and 4. I have changed my diet. I am eating an almost purely alkaline diet.
I have been studying and learned that most diseases and problems in our bodies stem for our systems being too acidic. Foods that you would think would be on the acidifying side are not. Like tomatoes and apple cider vinegar, pineapple. In fact, almost all fruits and veggies are alkalizing. The only meat on that side is chicken breast. All grains and fats are on the acidizing side. I feel really good eating this way. My body loves it but I miss dairy. The only milk that is alkalizing is organic, un-homoginized milk. I don't have a cow so I can't do that one!
I'm probably not going to stay this strict permanently but if it can fix the broblems in my small instestine than I am willing to eat this way forever. I don't want to be sick or die young. The problem is that the only way doctors are going to know if my diet has changed things is to go back in with another laporoscopy. I DON'T want to do that!! It may not be anything at all. I have never had any symptoms of problems in my intestines so I am just going to go with my "gut" feeling. (excuse the pun!)
I have prayed about it and I feel positive that I am doing what needs to be done to correct my problems. My blessing says that as I fast and pray, that my prayers will be answered. I have really prayed to know the answers to what I should do and I feel like I have them. I am seeing a doctor today who is a D.O. or maybe it's O.D. I can't remember. They tend to be more natural kinds of doctors.
It is so sad that we need tragedies and problems to bring us to our knees or the bring the desire for a relationship with God but that is how it is most of the time. I'm glad He is so patient about that!
What happened to that rich uncle I was supposed to have? Why is there such crap on the tv and better yet, why do I like to watch it? Hmmm. How could I not know it was supposed to snow tomorrow? The kids want me to bring the puppies to school for show and tell. Maybe I will. I'm a boring mom. I love my newly painted house. It soothes me. I have accepted that I probably will not have more kids. I am OK with it. I truly believe I can heal my body. With faith in God's help, I know it can be done. Others have done it and there is no reason why I can't. I KNOW it can work and I know it will. I want a pool and a pool boy to go with it. I love it that Kate Hudson does NOT get a boob job. I had a great weekend with my sisters. We shopped a little, went out to eat, went to a movie and had a slumber party. I hate it that my mother is not here to take care of me during this hard time. My Dad went into the hospital with pancreatitis. We don't know what is causing it. Hopefully it will turn around. I have 2 brothers who live in Hawaii. I wish my husband wanted to go to Hawaii. He has no desire to go there or anywhere else fun and beautiful. He like Alaska, Wyoming, Utah and Montana. All great places but nothing fancy. Why is my plumbing the last to be fixed when I am married to the plumber? I want long hair and wish mine would grow overnight. I want to feel more feminine. I love my Birkenstocks and wish the high arch ones came in pretty colors. They don't. There is nothing better than a hot bath and a good book. I miss sex. Bry won't do it until I am pain free. What if I am never pain free? I'll be like Queen Elizabeth. The virgin queen. I have not been to church in a month. I am officially inactive! We did have family night tonight though! I am gaining weight and my baggiest pants don't fit me. I know it's normal to gain after surgery but I don't have to like it! One of these days I will run a marathon. In fact, I may run 50 marathons. I am starting a detox tomorrow. It needs to be done once and for all. I sat in a hot tub this weekend with my sisters and some guys tried to pick us up and asked us over for drinks. I am going to dye my hair tomorrow. Maybe. I miss something and I don't know what it is. All I know is that I wish. but I don't know what I am wishing for. I want definite answers and feel like I have none. I am blessed with so much. Why do I keep wanting more? These are my thoughts at the moment. Nothing too exciting but there it is.
Hello there. A new week is starting and I have not progressed much. My sister who is a surgical tech. and I have been analyzing this pain that won't go away. It sound like an adhesion. That is where the scab that the muscle is making attaches to the stomach wall. It can be very painful and has to be surgically cut. It won't detach on it's own. Doesn't that sound nice?
I am trying to keep a good attitude about it all. But this does mean that they would want to cut me again!
I don't feel like writing but wanted to keep you all informed. I'll write more later.
My sister called me this morning to inform me that she and my 2 other sisters were on their way up to help me clean my house. She also told me that I better not run around trying to pick it up before they got there! Like I could!
I fold a batch of laundry and fall onto my bed and breathe heavy for 10 minutes! The iron supplement is helping and every day is better but I have a muscle, one of the rectusabdominus, I think that feels like it always has a Charlie horse in it. It is tight from my pubic bone all the way up to my ribs.
Is this normal?
I don't know if it is but I tried to stretch it out the other day and nearly died, literally, from pain. I was informed after that not to do that any more. Hello. I got it! I was told it takes up to 6 to 8 weeks for the muscle to heal. Yikes!
I am getting my hair doe today which will really help. I need to feel a little cuter than I do. S said to cancel the baby sitter for that too and that they'll just clean while I am gone and babysit.
I told my hubby about it. He is very uncomfortable with that and it is for me too but I just can't catch up. I take 2 steps forward and 1 step back where my house is concerned. It's not bad, just messy.
I am so grateful because my family are the kind of people that show up and just do the job. They don't call and ask if there is anything they can do to help. They just help without being asked. I LOVE that because of course, I say, "Sure, I'll let you know", to the people who call and offer. I would NEVER say "Could you come over and do my dishes, mop the floor , vacuum the whole house and do a few hundred loads of laundry? After that, can you change Heidi's sheets and clean her room? It's a disaster!"
I wish I could say that because I see these things that need to be done and turn right around and crash into bed. I wish it didn't take so long to feel good again. I want to go for a run. It is the perfect day for one.
Well, That's where I am today. See you all later. Oh, I did get a hold of Jake's teacher. Everything is going to be better for hem. I am very happy.
It's Monday morning and actually a beautiful day. I love it when spring starts to peak through. I love the smell and the feel and the sun. It boosts my mood.
I took the advice of taking iron. I think I probably am anemic. I feel tired and dizzy when I stand up and all that other stuff. I'll let you know how it works!
It was parent teacher conference last week and I sent the hubby. My 7 year old who seems to have a hard time and gets in trouble at school is a straight A student. In fact, he's ahead of where he needs to be by the end of the year already. I am very proud of him!
On the other hand, my 11 year old who is so "good" and helpful and obedient is failing spelling and math and is behind 4 months on book reports. How is it possible that I had no idea? How is it possible that his teacher never contacted me about this?
Every day after school he tells me that he is doing great. I was furious when I first found out. I wrote a note to his teacher on Friday and asked her to call me. She hasn't so I just called her but she is not home yet so I'll wait.
In the meantime,Jake is grounded until he catches up on his reading and he gets one month to bring up these grades and then I'll take him out of karate. He claims he is so busy doing his chores around the house that he has no time to do homework. So I informed him I could find him 2 extra hours a week without karate.
It's hard to not feel like this is my fault. I hate to accept any of the fault but I should have remembered about the book reports. I should have kept myself informed. I guess I can say that I have had a lot going on though so that's my story and I'm stickin' to it!
I had an interesting experience a little bit ago and wanted to write about while it was fresh in my mind.
I am alone today. Bry took the big boys camping and then this morning, my brother in law called me up and talked me in to letting him come all the way up here to get Gabe and Heidi. They are going to keep them till tomorrow. It took a bit to get me to agree because I felt so weird and uncomfortable letting them go. I am so used to having them around that I feel naked when they're gone. You know what I mean? They left at 2pm.
I have had the afternoon alone and I soaked in the tub and read and relaxed and it was nice. The bad thing is that it gives me too much time to think. Maybe that is a good thing for most but not for me! I decided to go into town a rent a couple of movies and get something to eat and man it took effort. Every time I stand up I get dizzy and I just feel totally depleted. Sitting in the car was fine but walking around makes me light headed. Is it normal to feel this way a week after? I keep worrying that there is something else wrong.
I listened to Shrek while I drove because it is peppy and I like it. On the way home the song "hallelujah" came on. All of a sudden I started to sob and sobbed the whole way home. I had this deep, dark anger that came up that I had not felt so far. I bawled even while carrying in my stuff and continued until I felt like I was going to throw up.
My problem is so much smaller than most people's and yet I feel....I don't know. I can't describe it. I am so worried about this intestine thing they found. I am half tempted to do nothing about it.
After I got home and took in what I bought, I knew I was is a bad place. I had bought lemon danishes, 2 half gallons of ice cream, a whole, cooked chicken in herb and lemon and them bread and hamburger buns. All so healthy.
I sat in bed and ate the chicken like a barbarian and then one of the pastries and I have to admit. I feel better. I guess I am one of the people who eat to improve their mood. That explains the thighs.
Anyway, that is where I am. I think I'll go back to bed and watch men in black. That always makes me laugh. That Will Smith is Fine. I'd make out with him.
Hello there. I am feeling better today. The cold is better, the pain in my belly is better and no, I do not have a hot tub. I have a tub I fill with hot water!
Baths are a sacred ritual in my family. My mother trained all of us girls to love the tub! There are many days when I find I just can't face the day. A good soak in the tub can change my outlook on everything. I don't know why or how it works but just thinking about it makes me want to take another and it's not even noon!
I will pass on this tradition. Actually, I think I already have. When I tell my 11 yr old to get in the shower, he begs me to let him take a bath instead. He loves to soak. Every morning both Heidi and Gabe want to take a bath before I can even open my eyes.
I think the Greeks and Romans had it right. Thank heavens for baths and bathing in all it's forms.
I have caught a cold. I think I could feel better without it! Coughing is rough on the the incisions. The runny nose is just plain irritating. The headache throws me. I don't know if it comes from being propped up in bed for so long, the cold or my neck being out of alignment. It doesn't really matter. It still hurts.
Poor me. I just want to feel sorry for myself today but I am tired of that. It gets old.
I did soak in a hot tub this morning. That was nice. I took Chronicler's advice and started a new book by James Patterson. I really like him. Good mystery and good sex. I need that since I'm not getting any.
I can only sit here for a few minutes. I had surgery Friday night. I went in and had all the symptons of a tubal pregnancy and The doc wouldn't let me go home. I was in surgery within the next half hour.
They did not find a tubal pregnancy but did find a few other intereseting things. One, I have some unuaual looking small intestines in places. He didn't know if it was something to worry about or not but in some places, it looked really different. He wants me to see a GI specialist to be sure.
It is the left side of my body that is the most screwed up with my birth defects and the other thing they found was that my left falopian tube does not not curl back down like it is supposed to. I just keeps going up and disappears. Just gets smaller and smaller. The left ovary is way up by my kidney. So that explains why it takes so long to get pregnant. I only have the chance every other month! SO WEIRD. He told me I ought to make sure I even have a left kidney to just be sure.
So, now I am sore and living on Percoset. The stuff wigs me out. I try to take as little as possible. Well, got to go. I'm tired and my incisions are feeling a little sore. This is really messing up my training schedual. Bye now.
OH MY WORD! I was a music major and know the power of music but I was astounded this morning. I have a new mp3 player that I got from Tash. She and her husband had ipods drop into their laps (literally) so she gave me her old mp3.
I made a running mix, which was hard because you have to get the tempo just right and I even used my metronome and still, some of the songs were too fast or too slow. ANYWAY...I ran for 1.5 miles WITHOUT stopping because of the music! I haven't done that in over a year I think! The music made it go by so fast and I didn't concentrate of the fact that I felt tired or whatever.
The beach boys and Ricki Martin had the best songs for my pace. It was so cool! I usually just turn on the tv, get on the treadmill and suffer through it. This time, I felt like I was on a high the whole time. It was great fun! Ya'll have to try it!
More news. I had to go in for a blood test yesterday to make sure my numbers are going down with the miscarriage I am going through. Well, the numbers went up 1000 points. It has the doctor worried that I could be having a tubal after all, although I have no pain there. I may need a D&C. who knows. They can't do another shot so even though the miscarriage is progressing (and that is all I'll say without embarrassing myself). I still may need the surgery. I hate this. What a gross time to have a vaginal ultra sound which is what the doc is planning on doing. UGGG.