Friday, January 26, 2007

thank heavens for the little things

It's amazing to me how little it takes to make me happy. Tonight, when everyone else was downstairs watching tv, I filled my big tub. lit my candles, turned on Ricardo Montaner and floated into heaven.

I never thought I would be able to hear Ricardo again. I was in love with his music my whole mission. It is so beautiful. My favorite is "Dejame llorar". (let me cry). Anyway, thanks to modern technology, I just turn on my computer, and he's here!

I have always been a music lover. It touches me so deeply. I am drawn to it. In the last 3 days, I have either downloaded or imported almost 5000 songs onto my computer. From LDS to Broadway,to rock and roll and classicals. ANYTHING I can think of. Why? What is it that drives me to do this? It is because music moves me! I want my favorite sounds to surround me whether I am in the car ,cleaning or working out.

This also helps me appreciate silence. People don't put enough stock in silence. I also love silence and I don't listen to it often enough.

I am so grateful for my talents with music. I am not prodigy but I can hold my own most of the time. I hope I was part of the Heavenly Choirs. I should be happier to share my talent which I am not always. Sometimes I get tired of only having callings where I do music! But thank heavens I can. I may only be mediocre but who cares. As least I can play a little John Denver on the guitar and sing when I feel like it. I miss being in a big choir like I was in college. My dream was to be in the Tabernacle choir. Who know, may be someday!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Ok NEW INFORMATION! My friend has a program called "best buy digital store" and it is even better than itunes! best buy has a deal where you can sign up and for 14.99 a month have unlimited download of music! the first 2 week are free and Bry and I have downloaded literally hundreds and hundreds of songs! It's pure heaven! Now I have to buy an ipod!

Anyway, That's all I do now! I made a subcategory of kids favorites with all the goodies like beach boys songs or ....well, just fun rock and roll that is appropriate for kids.

So, yesterday, just to keep you up to date on the running progress, for the first time, I ran 2 minutes at 6 mph and 1 min of walking for 2 miles! I shaved off 4 minutes from my running time! It may not seem big to some of you. But to those of you who love to run or ever had to "start out" you know how happy I am!

The kids are all doing great! Everyone is happy and I am reading, "The proper care and feeding of marriage" It's really good. You all should read it. So that is all the news for now! See ya!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007


I was looking for something yesterday. I don't even remember what it was, but my computer took me to "itunes" on the Internet. last week I had to delete my music thing from my computer.

I decided to download itunes and oh my word! It is so easy to use and to download and make cd's. I just love it! I had been using programs that were complicated and frustrating! I have been sitting at the computer all day transferring all my music over and buying songs I have always wanted but didn't want the whole CD. I feel like a baby learning to walk! I know most of you out there already know about this kind of thing, but I am pretty naive when it comes to technology! Just ask Lisa!

I usually figure things out in the end with a lot of trial and error but I love it when someone out there makes it easy! Yea for itunes!

A note to Jeri. Everyone has something to say. If you have thoughts in you head, you can think of things to say. I use my blog as a journal. I print off every month at the end. It is a commandment to keep a journal you know. I don't write every day but I figure this is as close as I am going to get! Plus I get a lot of input that really helps me from all my girlfriends out is cyber space. This blog has come to mean so much to me. I do have a hard time sometimes knowing people who know me read it but I just try to get over myself! You know?

Anyway folks, It's a good day and I think I will go run of the treadmill now! Love you all!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

New Babies!

They are here!!!! Newly arrived on Sunday, January21, 2007! I, of course was the midwife and held her hand the whole way through! There is something as beautiful as the miracle of birth whether human or not! Cookie did great and we are so pleased! She is the best little mommy and never wants to leave her babies. I had to put a hook on my closet because I just don't trust MY babies to not mess around with them! We have 2 boys a a girl. The brown one is the little girl. They are Shmorkies! From a Shih Tzu mother and a Yorkie/Maltese father.

So, Now I am a proud grandma.!

Just a note: Go to Yolanda's site! She needs every one's impute for something she is doing!

Saturday, January 20, 2007

I'm cured!

I have found the cure! It make take a while but I am cured! OK, here it is. The bone in my foot that has been the bane of my existence is called the cuboid. It is kind of a rectangular thing that sits right in front of the heel bone on the outside of the food. On me, it pops up a little because of the fallen arch thing. The problem bone on me is number 7.
Top view

Once a month, when I see my chiropractor, he adjusts it. It is a tricky move and one I have tried to teach the hubby, but one he can't get. He can pull traction on it and adjust that way, but it doesn't get the right bone. Anyway, last year, when my sacrum was a problem, I started to use a hammer to tap it back into place. I got the idea from my chiro because he has this little thing that thumps a bone into place when it won't go any other way.

The hammer gives Bry the heeie geebies but it works! So I thought, dang! Why don't I just hammer the cuboid down when it needs it. So everyday, before and after my run, I do this. IT WORKS!!!! It still feels a little sore sometimes but no where like it was! So I have been running every other day to start out and I feel so good! Yea for imagination and a little inspiration! I really believe HF put it in my mind.

He helps those who help themselves. That is a hard one sometimes but I am starting to believe that we can figure those little mysteries out with his help. Who would have thought that my foot problem was from fall arches? The bone is question doesn't even have anything to do really with the arches. Plus, the pain caused was not even where this bone is! It was hurting back by the heal. It was the tendons being pulled in the wrong direction! I would never have figured it out on my own! Now my dream of running a marathon is at least possible in my mind! It may be a while but after almost 5 years of constant pain, I am on my way!

Friday, January 19, 2007

Judge Roy Moore

Some of you may be wondering what Judge Roy Moore has been doing since he was removed from the bench for refusing to remove the Ten Commandments from his courtroom wall. Please read the poem he wrote. It's below his picture.
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The following is a poem written by Judge Roy Moore from Alabama. Judge Moore was sued by the ACLU for displaying the Ten Commandments in his courtroom foyer. He has been stripped of his judgeship and now they are trying to strip his right to practice law in Alabama. The judge's poem sums it up quite well.

America the Beautiful,
or so you used to be.
Land of the Pilgrims' pride;
I'm glad they'll never see.

Babies piled in dumpsters,
Abortion on demand,
Oh, sweet land of liberty;
your house is on the sand.

Our children wander aimlessly
poisoned by cocaine
choosing to indulge their lusts,
when God has said abstain

>From sea to shining sea,
our Nation turns away
>From the teaching of God's love
and a need to always pray.

We've kept God in our temples,
how callous we have grown.
When earth is but His footstool,
and Heaven is His throne.

We've voted in a government
that's rotting at the core,
Appointing Godless Judges;
who throw reason out the door,

Too soft to place a killer
in a well deserved tomb,
But brave enough to kill a baby
before he leaves the womb.

You think that God's not angry,
that our land's a moral slum?
How much longer will He wait
before His judgment comes?

How are we to face our God,
from Whom we cannot hide?
What then is left for us to do,
but stem this evil tide?

If we who are His children,
will humbly turn and pray;
Seek His holy face
and mend our evil way:

Then God will hear from Heaven;
and forgive us of our sins,
He'll heal our sickly land
and those who live within.

America the Beautiful,
if you don't - then you will see,
A sad but Holy God
withdraw His hand from Thee.

~~Judge Roy Moore~~


It's me now. I am amazed that people are thought of as out of style or fanatics if they openly believe in God. How sad. I refuse to be afraid or ashamed of my testimony. I think it was very noble of Moore to stand up for his beliefs in the face of what he has gone through. May we all have the same strength.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Good Friends!

There is nothing quite as refreshing to me as good friends! Good friends are like a glass of ice water for me, and remember, I LOVE water!

It's like being out hiking and you are so hot and tired and your feet are burning with that hot, sweaty feeling in your socks and hiking shoes. NOTHING feels better that taking off those shoes and sticking your feet into a cool stream. Nirvana.

It's like being so cold on a winter day and getting into a hot tub. Good friends make me feel this way. I love finding old friends who are as excited to be together again as I am. It makes feel feel solid. On a firm foundation.

New friends are the spring flowers. Beautiful, fresh, and something lovely after a bleak, cold winter.

I was reading my comments from Jeri about Depends and just laughed out loud because she is right! I can't wait to get together. We need to see if Melinda can come too. To be honest, I don't remember the names of the other 2 gals. I am getting old and rickety!

Anyway. I just want to say how much I love the women in my life who I feel supported by, who make me laugh and best of all, who can make me wet my pants!

Monday, January 15, 2007

100 things about me

A hundred things about me. cool. I think I will try it.

1. I love my July birthday.
2. I love fall best
3. I love the smell of alfalfa just cut.
4. I love going to the county fair with my kids
5. I love black and white paints (horses)
6. I love my new colorful house.
7. I was born with numerous birth defects including... missing ribs, scoliosis, a backwards heart, hair on my side and an extra nipple. (that produces milk when I am nursing)
8. I love that I am married to a man who sees none of those things and thinks I am perfect and sexy.
9. Where my ribs are missing, my mom called my "tickle hole"
10. I always loved that I had a tickle hole and no one else did.
11. My nick name from my mom was "missy pissy".
12. I love that name and now call Heidi my "missy pissy"
13. I love that my mom made me take piano lessons.
14. I am so glad I paid for more myself in college.
15. I always felt stupid in school and got bad grades.
16. I just didn't believe that guessing on the SAT would be worse than not guessing. I will not reveal my score for this very reason!
17. I hate my nose.
18. I am a firm believer in laser eye surgery.
19. I am not a cook but do enjoy it sometimes.
20. I love pancakes for dinner.
21. I went to New York with my dad when I was 9. Loved it.
22. I love my boobs since I have had kids.
23. I feel terrible about lying to my mom when I was in Jr. High so I could go to an R rated movie with my friends. I still feel guilty about that.
24. I was not a virgin when I got married. But is was with my hubby.
25. I too loved painted toe nails but french manicures on fingers.
26. I love to make my bed in the morning.
27. I am not a saver. I love to give things to the DI.
28. I served a mission to Venezuela.
29. Fell in love with my zone leader. The feeling was mutual. We never did anything unmissionary like.
30. I miss my mom terribly.
31. I used to say I was sick all through elementary school so I could stay home.
32. I ran away from kindergarten every day and had to cross a 4 lane street to get home
33. I loved to sleep with Gram and she taught me the 'Now I lay me down to sleep" prayer.
34. I loved to dip my toast in Grams tea.
35. I have an amazing patriarchal blessing.
36. I had a dream last night that my dog had kittens.
37. I always loved going through my dad's dresser and looking at all his "stuff"
38. I love art
39. I love museums
40. I love popcorn. REAL popcorn the kids you make yourself
41. I love to run but can't most of the time.
42. I LOVE to read. I have read every genre you can think of.
43. I loved Vegas but never gambled once.
44. I do not like my bishop. I dread him giving me a calling because I can't stand him. Isn't that terrible. The thing that makes me feel a little justified is that Lisa feels the same!
45. I don't like babysitting other peoples kids.
46. I love water. The ocean calls to me. I could soak in the tub for hours and whenever I eat out, I always just get water. Because I love it.
47. My left hand has beautiful, long nails. My right hand doesn't. Don't ask. I don't know.
48. I only have a couple of friends who I love to hang with. Where we go out, go to movies, eat etc...
49. I love my hubby's armpits. I don't know why. He hates it. I think they are sexy.
50. I love daisies best, and pink poppies too.
51. I love that my little girl told me this morning that I am pretty. I said, " but not as beautiful as you", and she said " that's ok. pretty is good".
52. I was born in Eugene, Oregon
53. My parents were told that I would have to have many surgeries to correct my problems as a child. I received a blessing, and by body grew in the exact ways they would have had to put it in surgeries. I have never had an operation yet. I am strait and perfect.
54. I was the only girl out of 8 babies blessed on my blessing day.
55. I have a terrible temper that I have had to learn to control.
56. I have seen my dad hit my mom and one time, slap my grandmother. There were times I hated him.
57. No one ever said anything about the violence in our house because we were ashamed.
58. I hate working outside of the home. I have never enjoyed it.
59. I sell Mary Kay. Sometimes.
60. I took piano lessons for 13 years.
61. I took voice lesson for 3 years
62. I took guitar lessons for 1 year
63. I tried to teach myself violin lessons. It didn't work.
64. I have taught piano lessons off and on for quite a while.
65. I was primary president for 6 months and asked to be released because of so many awful problems that involved my bishop and a counciler. I still feel like a failure over it.
66. I have been a choir director, music leader, primary music person, ward music chairman, webelos leader, primary teacher, 1st counciler in the stake relief soc. in college, and maybe a few more I can't remember.
67. I always loved the gospel and was never rebellious.
68. I never sluffed classes.
69. I love sex but never seem to get any.
70. Got my first kiss at 17 from a boy who kisses all the girls he goes out with. LOSER!
71. I hardly dated in high school. All my good friends were boys though.
72. I did not like Bry for the first10 years I knew him. He was too skinny, too nice and not LDS at the time.
73. I feel tired a lot.
74. I love my bed
75. I have never really excelled at anything. I am good at some things but not "wow" at anything.
76. I always wanted to be a 'Young Ambassador" but was not accepted to BYU
77. I wanted to be on Broadway but was too chicken to make it I think
78. I Love to exercise but I don't look like I do.
79. I love history
80. I am ashamed at how selfish I was to my roommates in college. Please forgive me guys. I was a bitch and I acknowledge it.
81. I love going to the movies.
82. I almost never wear makeup anymore
83. I love to eat out
84. I hate swearing but I do swear sometimes. Trying to cut down.
85. I have always compared myself to my little sister
86. Every boy I liked in college, liked her instead. I wish she would have been uglier.
87. I got 'A's in music and an "f" in foods in jr high
88. I love dogs and tolerate cats
89. I love my horses but never do anything with them anymore
90. I hate pop. Pop of any kind. It was hard on my mission. That's all anyone could drink.
91. I hate it that I am the only one really who's active in the church in my family.
92. I love getting blessings from my husband.
93. Polygamy would not bother me. I would love the support and help. No body else would get sex either since my husband is so tired all the time!
94. I love love watch tv. I probably watch too much
95. I love all kinds of food. My mouth actually watered at the sushi platters in Cosco on Saturday. Didn't know I liked sushi that much.
96. I love old rock and roll and old country.
97. I notice classic cars now when I see them .. Bry loves them. I always think "oh I wish bry could see this car!"
98. I want to travel to Europe
99. I never thought I would think of anything this long to write
100. there is so much more! I love writing about me! I am a yellow after all!
OK. New post. It is Martin Luther King Day. I know it has a new name but I prefer the one I grew up with.

Thank heavens for people like him. If only we could look at people and not see color. Here in Utah, there are not a lot of black people. Personally, I love their dark skin. I think it is beautiful. In fact, I dated a guy in college who was from Africa. He was brilliant. Spoke 8 different languages and had served a mission and was a wonderful guy. A little intense, but nice. He wanted to marry me and begged my mom to tell him the secret to my heart. She loved him because he spoke Norwegian. I just wasn't in love with him.

Anyway, I remember watching Oprah and realizing for the first time that she was black. I seriously had never noticed. I just didn't see it. I would always like to be the kind of person who doesn't notice that.

I love my dad but I think he is a little prejudiced. I grew up with him making little rude comments about indians, mexicans, and blacks. They were all stereo typed. It used to make us kids so mad. I wonder if he said it just to get a rise because he never seemed to treat people different or rudely when he was with them.

I had a cousin who lived in Florida who was also REALLY prejudiced. It amazes me.

If "white people were smarter, they might even realize that black people are not only equal, but possibly superior. They have these wonderful bodies that athletically speaking, are .....well, I have not words to desribe it. Their skin, because of the the darker color ages slower. They sunburn less and I personally love their beautiful, full lips!

Now, as far as other races go, my husband is really attracted to the Chinese look. I found this out just a little while ago. He really likes Lucy lu, or however you spell her name, and some of the other asian actresses. Although he really likes Hale Berry too.

The point is. We are all beautiful. Beautiful in our differences. Whether we are short, tall, fat, thin, black, white whatever! I love a rainbow of colors! My wish is that in our world we can always look at each other and just see a beautiful spirit. Period.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

New meme

This is an email I got from my sister today. She sent it and you fill it out and forward it. I love this kind of thing! Keep it going!

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:

1.Worked at early intervention research institute in college
2.started up and ran the music library at SUU
3.Worked for Dad at his insurance agency.
4.LDS hospital as a diet technician
B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
1.Van Helsing
3. Superman Returns
4. So I married an ax murderer
1. C) Four places I have lived:
1.Bountiful, Utah
2. Caracas, Venezuela
3. Logan, Utah
4.Now, where Winnie the poo would live.

D) Four TV shows I love to watch:

1. House
2. Heroes
3. Medium
4. Judging Amy

E) Four places I have been on vacation:

1. New York (when I was 9)
2. Yellow stone
3. South Dakota (Mount Rushmore)
4. The ocean in Oregon (my personal favorite)
F) Websites I visit daily: (or semi-weekly)

1. My blog
2. Your blogs
4. my bank! pretty boring!

G ) Four of my favorite foods:

1. Lemon anything
2. Filet mignon
3. Chocolate
2. pop corn (except it makes me feel sick now, in my old age!)
H) Four places I would rather be right now:

1.In a ski lodge
2. On the beach in Florida
3.Getting a masssage heaven visiting mom (temporarily)
I) FIVE friends I think will respond:

1. Lisa
2. Yolanda
3. Chronicler
4. Jeri
5. Charlotte
6. mel
7. mommy blogger
8. Island queen
9. jewel
10. whoever I missed!

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... and please don't spoil
the fun. Hit forward, delete my answers and type in your answers.
Then send this to a whole bunch of people you know INCLUDING the
person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will learn a lot
of little known facts about those who know you. Remember to send it
back to the person who sent it to you

oil of oregano

We have been sick at our house for 2 months. Not the kind where you cant get up. just this border line stuff that makes you tired and cranky.

A friend of mine told me to get oil of oregano. She swears by it. So I did. I put a few drops under my tongue every couple of hours and MAN! My sinuses were cleared. I was cleaning the house! I felt great. I was ready to play whoopee with Bry at bedtime!

He wasn't though so I have been giving it to him. He thinks it tastes like turpentine! I woke up at 5 this morning reading and revving! I haven't felt this good in ages! It's better than an antidepressant! Here are some of the benefits I found on the Internet about it.

"What makes Oil of Oregano so great?

Oil of Oregano has many properties that make it useful from the top of your head to the tip of your toes. It is also useful everywhere in between. Starting at the top of your head, it kills head-lice and works as a dandruff fighter when mixed in shampoo. It is antibacterial, so it works great in liquid soap on the body. A drop in back of the ear lobe gets rid of ear infections. Putting a drop on the temples helps get rid of headaches. Inhaling the vapors clears the head. A drop on your toothbrush in place of toothpaste will surprise you. If you swallow after brushing you get an added benefit in the stomach. A drop or two in a gel capsule two to three times a day will get rid of candida when swallowed. Helps to heal cuts and scrapes when applied topically. It relieves pain at the joints when rubbed on those areas. A drop on your chest will help you sleep by purifying the air around you. Applied to fingernails, it will kill fungal growth. It works on warts, too. Keep it away from your eyes and groin area, it will irritate and cause much discomfort. It is amazing how fast it works on athlete’s foot; you can feel it working immediately. Taking a few drops a couple of times a day while traveling will kill microorganisms and parasites. This is especially helpful while traveling abroad. These are only some of the many uses for Oil of Oregano on the human body.
Benefits of Oregano Oil:
Oil of Oregano has been shown to have beneficial properties for the following conditions: digestion, parasites, depression, flu, constipation, rashes, brain fog, lung fungus, toe and fingernail fungus, head lice, aching joints and muscles, warts, athlete’s foot, eczema, flu, headaches, toothaches, ear infection, fevers, allergies, burns, bleeding, fatigue, arthritis, sprains, back pain, colds, when sprayed, cleans air, kills bugs on plants, kills fleas, lyme disease, canker sores, gastrointestinal/colitis/diarrhea, e.coli and try it for what ever else bothers you.
allergies / colds / gastritis / arthritis / cold sores / gum disease / asthma / colitis / neutritis / athlete's foot / congestion / prostatitis / backpain / diarrhea / psoriasis / insect bites / ear aches / ringworm / bleeding wounds / canker sores / bronchitis / eczema / sinusitis / toothache / candidiasis / fatigue / flu / lung congestion / head and body ache."

Try it. Be sure to get the GNC brand. It's cheaper than a name brand. Don't be afraid of the price. For how much you drop on your mouth, it will last a while!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007


I received this email today from my niece. I loved it. It made me cry at the end. I wanted to share it with all of you. Enjoy.

"The first day of school our professor introduced himself and
challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood
up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder.

I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me
with a smile that lit up her entire being.

She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose.

I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?"

I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and
she gave me a giant squeeze.

"Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked.

She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married,
and have a couple of kids..."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to
be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting
one!" she told me.

After class we walked to the student union building and shared a
chocolate milkshake.

We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we
would leave class together and talk non-stop. I was always mesmerized
listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and
experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easi
ly made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she
revelled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students.
She was living it up.

At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football

I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped
up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she
dropped her three by five cards on the floor

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone
and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent
and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in
order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop
playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.

There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and
achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've
got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.

We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even
know it!

There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.

If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and
don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I
am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do
anything I will turn eighty-eight.

Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The
idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no

The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather
for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those
with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose."

She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in
our daily lives.

At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all
those years ag o.

One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep.

Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to
the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to
be all you can possibly be.

When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of
advice to your friends and family, they'll really enjoy it!

These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.

We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give.

God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to
it, He will bring you through it.

Pass this message to 7 people except you and me. You will receive a
miracle tomorrow

If you choose not, then you refuse to bless someone else.

"Good friends are like stars.........You don't always see them, but
you know they are always there."

there's only 1 line

I have a few minutes so I thought I would get my thoughts down for the day.

I had not realized how disappointed I would feel when I realized I was not pregnant. It's not like we are trying really but I honestly thought I was this month. It's scary to imagine having another baby and I wonder if I am crazy and I thought I didn't want anymore. I can't lie to myself any longer. I do. I love babies. I love the baby stage. I love the way they smell and drool and I love how it feels to nurse. I love the beautiful clothes I could buy. I don't even mind the midnight feedings or diapers or crying. Babies are easy for me.

I felt for a while there that I was supposed to have another one but it has been 4 or 5 months now and nothing has happened so I start to wonder if there really was no message at all.

I was talking to my sister and she just told me that they had been trying for the last year and had given themselves a year and if it didn't happen, then they wouldn't try anymore. She felt there was one more. A boy. Well, nothing happened and now they are thinking of getting a vascectomy (sp?) It makes me really sad.

How is it so possible to be so wrong? Is it just hormones? Why am I so disappoined when I already have 4 kids? Some women try for their whole lives and never get pregnant and here I feel sorry for myself. My dog is pregnant and so are 3 of my really good friends. Do I just feel left out of the excitement?

It is very tiring and stressful to keep going like this, yet I don't want to use birth control yet but I can't stand the end of the month when I find out again that nothing in my body has changed except for the fat content!

I do like the fact the I can run and not worry about anything but that. Jake has figured out how to adjust my foot for me and I hope that helps. I will just work out and get in really good shape and go from there.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Ok. So much for the "not going to include losing weight" for a new years resolution. I have gotten on the treadmill everyday this week. I have just felt that itch. I had not run for over 2 months. I just got sick of my foot hurting. It's starting to bother me again with the running but I am tired of my clothes getting tighter!

It's that my feet had fallen arches, it took some years to get that way and I guess I can't expect them to rehabilitate over night. I am doing foot exercises and wearing my high arch birks and that is going great but I can't afford to have my chiropractor adjust my foot often and I can't seem to get my husband to do it right.

I know this will take time but I happen to be pretty impatient about it!

It is snowing today and it looks pretty. Cold, but pretty. I don't want to go out though. I am such a homebody in bad weather. I just want to snuggle up and watch a good movie or make cookies or do something domestic. I need to go to the store and am wondering if we will starve if I don't. A good fast is good for everyone!

My son bought me a book called "Crispin" for Christmas. It is a book written for youth and really didn't grab my attention just by the cover picture. He has asked me everyday if I have started it yet because he knows how much I love to read. Well, I decided to stop avoiding it and I read it yesterday. I couldn't lay it down! It was a great little book! How surprising. It just goes to show, You can't judge a book by it's cover!

I have figured out what my new years resolution is. To take it one day at a time. Like I said before, I tend to burn out quickly, my goal is to go ONE day at a time. For one day, I can exercize. Just today. Today, I can read the scriptures. For one day I CAN control my temper. For one day I will not swear etc etc.....
I can do certain things for one day. That is do-able. Maybe that will work for some of you out there too.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Happy new year!

Well, here we are again. This is the 37th new year I have seen. Weird. I have not made any new years resolutions yet and I know I am not going to keep them if I do!

Isn't that terrible! I thought about the "losing weight" one, but I have done that one before. I thought about doing the " read scriptures everyday one" but I know that won't happen. See what a sinner I can be?

Maybe I am being a little pessimistic but I think, If I haven't gotten it down by now, Is is really going to happen? Making goals is a wonderful thing and I am all for it. But I also know that out of "drifters, pursuers, achievers, and over achievers", I am probably somewhere between drifter and pursuer. If it is something I really want done, I do it but I am not one of those long term people. Those of you who know me well, know that I get all excited about things, it lasts for a month and then I'm done. It just fizzles out. I am a tea light. Man am I cute, I burn bright but not for long periods of time!!!

I do want to make cookies more often with my kids, be a better friend to them, have sex more often, and keep my house better, but who doesn't?