I just had an interesting experience. I young guy from Turkey just tried to pick me up on "skype". I was just sitting here working, and my skype came up and this guy is trying to get me to answer and I just ignore him. I even decline twice to talk to him and finally, I give up and say, I am a married woman with 4 kids, 4 horses, 3 dogs, 3 cats and 20 chickens. Do you still want to talk? I thought that would put a damper on things. It didn't. He still wanted to chat. I chatted for a few minutes because it was a boon to my self esteem but he is only 25, can hardly speak English but thinks I have beautiful eyes.

Anyway, he wants me to put him on my contact list. How weird. Some people are so lonely. It's too bad that they have to reach out on the computer. Or maybe it's a good thing for those people who are shy. Who am I to judge?

I went to a wedding shower this weekend with about 50 women who were all my age but mostly single. I'm sure most have happy lives but a piece of me felt bad for them that they have not been able to experience kids and a wonderful man and some never will in this life. What did I ever do to get the perfect picture? My life is pretty much just what I wanted. Why do I have the dream come true but most people in the world don't? It makes me sad to think about and yet I feel so blessed too.

I don't have a perfect life and the people in my life drive me crazy at times and I am sure I do the same for them, yet, I wouldn't change a thing.

We are all on a different path. At a different level of learning. I love people and I love that we are all different but I do love living around people who believe like I do. I love "my people". I know a lot of people who don't have much good to say about "Mormons" but I have to say. I love em! We are not a perfect people as a whole, but I do believe that we are trying to be. At least on my part, I am. I know I fall short and am not always a good example of what I should be, but I love the gospel and I know it's true.

My family does not like it when I say "I know" about things. Why can't I know? Why should I water it down? I was sitting in church yesterday thinking about that. I never say anything that is concrete in my mind around my family because it usually gets shot down. The older I get though, the less I care about that. My new goal is to be unafraid to talk about what I feel is right or true.

Life is beautiful. It really is.