Monday, May 07, 2007

Baby things

I have been going through all my baby things. Sorting which things to give to the DI, which things to give to my sister who is pregnant and which things I want to keep.

This is really hard. It is breaking my heart actually. I know in my heart that I am not going to have any more children myself, yet, I want to hang on to these precious things that represent beautiful memories that I will never experience again.

The most beautiful things I will give to my sister, and the cute things to a neighbor of mine who is having a baby.

The outfits that all my babies wore, blessing dress, special blankets and things, I will keep. these things only take up a half of a tote. The things I am giving away take up 2 totes and 5 kitchen garbage bags!

I need to do this. I can't keep hanging on to this stuff. Plus I need the space. My youngest is almost 3 and really, others could use these beautiful things. But it makes me feel like a piece of me has died. I don't know how to explain it. I have to face it. Face reality. This is life. I am getting older, I have 4 great kids. Kids grow up.

I am like my mother. She had 8 kids. All in a 20 year span. She loved the baby stage and when one of us got to be about 3 or 4, she would want another. She had her first at 20 and her last at 40.

Now, I don't want to do that but I am very sentimental about my baby things. I hate giving them away. I want to be selfish with them and hold them to me and never let go.

I will shed a few tears and know that I am giving a huge gift to someone who cannot buy all these things on their own, but 0h, how hard it is.


Lisa M. said...

I need to do the same thing-

Oh where, has my life gone?


chronicler said...

That's one of the hardest things to do Melissa. Hopefully the receivers appreciate your gifts.

Maren said...

It is hard. I've been doing the same thing. I feel like I am giving away dreams and a piece of myself, but know it is time to let go.