Thank you all so much for cheering me on! It means so much to me! I love all the support I feel here on our little network of friends. But I have decided not to do the race on Saturday. I really want to and I am not giving up, I just know I am not ready. I am only running a mile right now and when I do more, I wake up the next day with feet that hurt. I think I just need to take it slow.

My goals still include running. In fact, I want to run a marathon some day if I can just keep going, working out and trying to get my body as strong as I can, I believe it will happen. I also know from experience that I shouldn't bite off more than I can chew. I regret it every time. I admit that I feel so jealous of these people I know that can run and have no pain and can train everyday and progress quickly. Some days I just want to cry at the unfairness and yet, who ever said life would be fair? It's not ever going to be, nor is it supposed to be.

It's these trials that we overcome that make us stronger, better people. I KNOW that because of my struggles with fitness, that once I am there, I will be able to sympathize and help others who are where I was. I know I am going through this frusteration for a reason. I am not sure what it is but I know it's got to be there!! I don't believe we go through what we do for nothing. I also don't believe that life has to always be hard. God wants us to be happy and healthy and to raise happy, healthy kids. I guess it's all about attitude. When the waves come do you give up and quit bailing? Or do you yell at the wind, "DO YOUR WORST!!" I hope you are all the latter. I hope I am too!