I had an interresting experience this morning. I was chatting with Heavenly Father and basically begging him to heal me and that is it such a small thing I am asking and why won't he just do it etc....? When I got a real distinct message from him. I was told very clearly that I am being very selfish and only thinking of myself and that if I lost myself in service to others I would get better faster. Now I don't know who is in charge of passing on messages to me but who ever they are, they are extremely blunt. It must be my grandmother on my dad's side.

I prefer to be delt delt with in a more loving, patient manner. Would it hurt to be coddled just a little bit? I realize it is a pretty obvious thing that most of you could have pointed out to me already but hey, I needed this lesson in this way. Sometimes you have to be smacked across the face (spiritually speaking) to get the message. Are any of you out there like that?

Well, today is our ward campout and I have lots to do so I'll see you all later! Happy prayers to you!