Well friends, it's over. Bry and I spent the whole day at the doctor's and we were exhausted. To make a long story short. There is no baby. It looked like it was a defective egg according to the doc that implanted and got the ball rolling but never developed.

They thought it was a tubal pregnancy there for a while and can't completely rule that out but I had no tenderness or pain there. They gave me a shot to hurry up the process. Otherwise it could take 2 to 3 weeks to finish. I guess my body had started to get it when it started to spot, but was still trying to hang on.

I'm ok. Sometimes I cry and sometimes I am really mad about it. Most of the time I just don't want to talk about it. I just want to be quiet. I think there are those of you out there that know what I mean. I just want silence. I REALLY don't want to go to church tomorrow. There are some there who knew I was pregnant but I hadn't really officially announced it yet since it was so early still. I do know that people knew who I hadn't told. It's amazing how fast news spreads. Anyway, I just don't want to go and have people ask about it.

The process of elimination could start any time anyway and I definitely don't want to be out and about when it does. I want to just curl up in my big bed and watch the Oscars.

My sweet friend who knew what was happening brought us dinner, 2 other friends shared the day in watching my 2 little kids. What a blessing my close friends are. They are like sisters who I can impose on and not feel bad. It's days like these when I wish my sisters lived closer but thank heaven for the gift of pseudo sisters!

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. It means a lot and I am doing well considering. I have a wonderful family who is catering to my every need! Love to you all and remember, when your life is bad, there is always someone out there who has it worse.