Saturday, February 24, 2007

Well friends, it's over. Bry and I spent the whole day at the doctor's and we were exhausted. To make a long story short. There is no baby. It looked like it was a defective egg according to the doc that implanted and got the ball rolling but never developed.

They thought it was a tubal pregnancy there for a while and can't completely rule that out but I had no tenderness or pain there. They gave me a shot to hurry up the process. Otherwise it could take 2 to 3 weeks to finish. I guess my body had started to get it when it started to spot, but was still trying to hang on.

I'm ok. Sometimes I cry and sometimes I am really mad about it. Most of the time I just don't want to talk about it. I just want to be quiet. I think there are those of you out there that know what I mean. I just want silence. I REALLY don't want to go to church tomorrow. There are some there who knew I was pregnant but I hadn't really officially announced it yet since it was so early still. I do know that people knew who I hadn't told. It's amazing how fast news spreads. Anyway, I just don't want to go and have people ask about it.

The process of elimination could start any time anyway and I definitely don't want to be out and about when it does. I want to just curl up in my big bed and watch the Oscars.

My sweet friend who knew what was happening brought us dinner, 2 other friends shared the day in watching my 2 little kids. What a blessing my close friends are. They are like sisters who I can impose on and not feel bad. It's days like these when I wish my sisters lived closer but thank heaven for the gift of pseudo sisters!

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. It means a lot and I am doing well considering. I have a wonderful family who is catering to my every need! Love to you all and remember, when your life is bad, there is always someone out there who has it worse.


Jeri said...

there are no words to say... I am SO SORRY! I am crying with you.

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Lisa M. said...

I understand quiet.

I don't wanna go to church tomorrow either. Shall we play hookey?

Love you!

chronicler said...

I am so sorry Melissa.

tomorrow's stake conference in our neck of the woods. easy hookie day. not sure if we will though.

Island Queen said...

Oh my sweet sister .. I'm so sorry. I hope you find your peace and quiet.

How wonderful for your dear friends to help you. I wish I was there to hep - but I'm keeping you, Bry and the family in my prayers.

Much love and Aloha,

attack of The Mouse said...

Thanks for sharing. I've been there. Quiet and alone are the right words. ((hugs))((hugs))((hugs))((hugs))((hugs))