I really don't feel like writing today. I don't feel like doing anything today. I feel really depressed and if I didn't have so much to do, I would do nothing and just feel sorry for myself. I have been spotting for the last 2 days. Today will be the 3rd day if it keeps up.

I know it is common for women to spot but it is more common when spotting happens to lose the baby. I honestly don't know what will happen but it is hard to feel cheerful at the moment. I keep wondering if it is something I have done. In my brain I don't think it is. I have studied enough to know that at this point, if you are going to miscarry, it will just happen. But it is hard not to wonder if maybe I am exercising to hard or did I take something I shouldn't have or........

Anyway, this is my news. Sorry it is not more positive. I'll let you know what happens. In the meantime, I just want to sit here and ignore the rest of the world.