I seem to have more time on my hands lately and have more desire to be on my computer. Maybe the high speed makes the difference! I was talking to my sister tonight and she is the only one of my brothers or sisters that has my blog address. (out of 9). Sometimes, I don't know if I like that!

I kind of like the anonymity (sp?). My other sister called and wanted the address because she wants to "know me better too". I guess I said something about how I didn't want anyone else to have it! I don't remember saying that but I do have a history of being a space cadet after all!!

Well, the one sis who does read this is not sure about how she feels having her picture on here. I should have asked first I admit. I, as well as anyone knows there are some real idiots out there so if any of you are reading this (and I am sure you know who you are), don't come after me or mine! Because this is an LDS website, I tend to have more trust than I probably should. What do you all out there think? Am I going too crazy with the pictures? I just know that I LOVE it when you all post pictures. I hope it is never anything I will live to regret.

Change of subject. Do any of you out there ever feel lonely in your wards? There are tons of young moms like me with young kids here and yet I don't feel like I fit in with any of them. I have tried to have close friendships and it always seems one sided. I wasn't even going to write about this because I didn't want to look pathetic! But, it is bothering me lately. It makes me very grateful to Lisa. We live pretty close to eachother and she has been a true friend. This feeling though is almost like high school. There is one gal in my ward who talks about all the fun stuff she does with the other gals in the ward (that I am never invited to) almost like she wants to prove how "popular" she is. She did used to be a cheerleader. Does that make any difference? The really hard part is that she is my visiting teaching partner! The more we are together, the less I like her! It that bad or what! It just feels too much like high school. Maybe it is all in my head but it frusterates me! I would never say the things she says to me to her! I would never tell someone about a really fun neighborhood party I was putting on right in front of someone who was not invited! HELLO!

You see, I live on the highway. She lives in the "new" neighborhood, kiddie corner from me, where all the houses are about $550,000. It used to be a beautiful field. Now I know I am complaining alot here and the new families are very nice and I like them all alot, they are just very exclusive sometimes and those of us who are across the street feel left out. At least I do. OK, So that does sound pathetic. I should go to bed. I need a stiff drink. Maybe I'll go in the kitchen and get me a nice diet, caffeine free pepsi. On the rocks.