Friday, November 16, 2007

For all of you who are dying to know what went down for Jake's B-day, here it is.........

He came home from school on Wednesday, I sat him down, explained the deal and let him decide. I did explain how awful I felt and that next year, when he turns 13, a real teenager, we'd throw him a big party.

He went with the "Rip stick" . What a good boy and let me tell you how relieved I was! I am still not up to par and it is Friday!

He wanted a cherry pie instead of cake so I made him a Pie and we had ice cream melting over it. Wonderful. We had his favorite dinner, tacos, and taco salads and he didn't have to do any chores.

He loved that. It ended up being a wonderful day and he was SO happy with his presents. I was so happy with less work and everyone went to bed with a smile on including Bry and me. We were in bed by 8:30!

Change of subject. I weighed myself this morning. I haven't done that for a while because I had just decided to "live" and enjoy life and not worry about weight anymore. Well, I am the heaviest I have ever been except when I was pregnant. It was a blow to my self image just a little. I had noticed that my clothes were tighter and didn't "feel" good but I had decided to love myself the way I am.

OK, I have changed my mind. I don't like the way my body feels. I don't like that my bra digs in and I can't wait to take it off. I hate how my pants feel tight and uncomfortable and all the rest that goes with it. I really hate how I have a roll under by boobs that would have a bigger bra size than the girls upstairs! I don't know what do do because I love food and I hate restricting myself, but until I can start running again, I guess I should just a little. I am getting to old to ignore my health.

I don't want to be one of the elderly that is constantly battling illness or disease because I just wanted to "live". That would be contradictory wouldn't it??

So, I don't know what I will do. I'll let you know. But something has to change.

5 comments:

Charlotte said...

Melissa,

Feel free to disregard my opinion, but the best thing I've found to help me with my quest to keep my body healthy is the book "Thin for Life" by Anne Fletcher. It's not a diet book per se,--more of a research book on what successful weight losers/maintainers have in common.

The practices described there are flexible, practical, and do-able. Best of all (in my opinon), there's not a "gimicky" thing in the whole book.

I read it about 10 years ago (I checked it out of the library then), and then about two months ago (when I decided to get a bit more serious about losing the "I don't have to try to fit into my wedding dress anymore" weight that I gained right after our wedding), I bought a used copy on half.com for like $5 or so, including shipping. It's been great to read the book and slowly ease back into better health practices. I've lost six pounds in the last two months, and that combined with feeling like I'm more in control of my eating has really lightened my spirits.

So, take that for what it's worth.

melissa c said...

Good advice Charlotte. I will get that book.

Hopefully I'll give it a good review! lol

Yolanda said...

Welcome to my world, lately!!

Don't you hate it when your body is not cooperating!!?

I feel your pain...

xo Yo

Tonya said...

I'm glad that everything worked out. Sometimes kids can be so reasonable that it's scary (I did say sometimes..LOL)

Good luck on the battle, it's so hard to find something that works for you.

Island Queen said...

Hey Melissa - would you please email me? Lisa has my personal email addy - I wanted to talk with you about the board. Thanks!