Food, food, glorious food!

Free Friday has rolled around again and here I sit at my computer on a hot but beautiful day. I bought Digorno pizza for dinner. It's not on my diet and I don't care.

I LOVE to eat. Yes, I am trying to lose weight and be diciplined and I exercize regularly and it doesn't seem to make much difference. That is so frusterating. Our world centers around food and you know what? I like it! I love having food at Enrichment night. I love going to the movies and eating pop corn. I love birthday cake and icecream. I love cream cheese danishes. I love roast beef and mashed potatoes with gravy and I am tired of depriving myself!!!! Today, I am STARVING!!!

I want to have the body I used to have. A body that could eat anything and never gain weight! A body that I didn't even know looked good. There was a time that I did not appreciate when the sky was the limit. As I aged and had kids, the gods decided to play a cruel trick on me. Probably to see if I could stand it! I can't stand it!

The word of wisdom is a toughy. Most LDS folks have no problem with the smoking and drinking bit, but then there is the food! The glorious food! Who doesn't like to eat? How do you tell a meth addict not to do his meth when it is sitting right in front of him! That is how food is to so many people! I don't know if I am addicted to food and I am not fat but I am not super thin either. If there happens to be icecream in my freezer (which seldom happens), if I think about it, I can't NOT have some! Then I think that If we eat it all fast it won't be there anymore!

There was a study done about the difference between fat people and thin people. They found that in people who are overweight, even after they have eaten, their mouths water when shown pictures of food or if it is talked about. Thin people felt full after eating and had no desire for more. No mouth watering! I have thought alot about this and found that I am a mouth waterer! I notice it now! It drives me crazy! It is some chemical thing in the brain! It's not just a lack of self control. How do people with this problem overcome it? Is is like telling someone with schizphrenia (sp?) that they don't need their medication. You can overcome it on your own. ( I am not saying here that a person needs drugs to lose weight). If we prayed real hard would they be cured of their brain malfunction? Could it be the same type of thing with food, drugs, all "addictions"? Are some people predispositioned to be overweight? Yes? Well, does that mean some are predispositioned to be gay or rapists or murderers or drug addicts or what ever?

What a question! Who knows? It could become deep here! All I know is that I love food! How about you?