Monday, July 10, 2006

Raindrops keep falling on my head

It's Monday morning and I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself. If you don't want to keep reading this I totally understand. You can stop right here and feel better for it.

Ever since the 5k race last tuesday, I have been in pain again. Just like old times. I don't know what I did to myself but I am guessing it is from starting too fast and too hard. I wake up so achy it's all I can do to get to the tub for a good long, hot soak. Every day.

Today, after a week of not feeling much better, even after visiting my chiropractor, it sit here almost in tears of the injustice of it! Running is something I want to be able to do. I don't know why it's so stuck in my brain. There are alot of other things I could get hooked on. I know I should be grateful that I have the body I do but when you live in constant pain, even on the good days, you start to go a little insane.

There was a study done that showed that people who have chronic pain actually lose brain cells. It has become a joke between me and my husband. It certainly feels like I am losing brain cells! Anyway, I pray constantly for relief but I am afraid that in this life, I may not get any. It scares me to death. I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. But as a wise man once said, there are two choices. You can either get busy living or get busing dying.

I guess I will just keep waddling on.

6 comments:

momyblogR said...

Hang in there girl. I feel prehistoric on days too. But, I just get up and GO!

Lisa M. said...

I love ya sis. I know this is a constant struggle. Somewhere you will find the solace that escapes you. I know you will. Even if it is the answer you don't want to hear. The peace and comfort that your heart are looking for will come...

I am certain of it.

Lisa M. said...

If that doesn't work, will get you some wild pain killers and drink margaritas.

*smile*

Amy said...

I had a car accident in November and all I have to say is that nobody fully understands chronic pain until you have had it! I am really sorry, I am trying to work up to running, I never have been a runner and am still in the walking stage but I have always had dreams (literally) of running. It's hard though when your body hurts. Good luck.

Yolanda said...

I'm in pain from not having a new post from you...Missing you!! Hope all is well...
xo Yolanda

Maren said...

Sorry to hear of this struggle. I hope that it eases for you soon. Chronic anything wears down the strongest of people.