Yolanda's last comment on my last blog got me thinking. I have a sister who has been living in California for the past 5 or 6 years. they are moving back to Utah. They are pretty dang well to do and go on losts of trips with their kids to see wonderful places and things. I can't wait to have her closer. They do have alot of money but they also work hard for it and smart for it. They picked great careers. S. is a massage therapist and does VERY well at it out of her home. R works for a construction company and is one of the top dogs.

Anyway, Bryan asked me the other day if I was jealous of them. They have so many beautiful material things. I told him that sometimes I am envious. I wish I could take my kids on the trips they do. I wouldn't mind living in a big, beautiful, new house. But on the flip side of the coin, I am giving my kids something that most never have. Yes, our house is modest. It's average as far as nice goes. We don't take alot of trips. Mostly camping and fishing which my kids almost prefer I think. But we do get to live in the country. We do get to have lots of pets and horses etc... It is a dream I had my whole life. I was blessed enough to marry a man who wanted the same. Do I feel envious of S. sometimes? Yes. But all I need to do to make it go away is look out my kitchen window and see my beautiful horses in the pasture and my dogs chasing the cats around the yard, and the beautiful alphalpha pastures behind my house to remember, THIS is what I picked. THIS is what I wanted. I am so grateful that Gos gave me what I really wanted. I don't know if I could handle alot of money. It might change me. My sister and her husband on the other hand are very generous. They love company and are always trying to bribe us to come visit saying they will pay our gas and everything. (guess how well that goes over with Bryan.) They give their money away all the time. I am very proud of them. I don't know if I would be that way. That is propbalby why I subconciously keep myself on a modest income!!!!

So anytway, no, I would not trade the life I have. I am tremendouly happy. We have the gospel in our lives which has added a richness I can't even begin to explain. I lived for 9 years with a man who was inactive, so ,yes, I do know the difference. That is something many people do not have, nor even know how much they are missing without it. I have what I need when I need it and that is all I really can ask for.