I am so sad this morning. My eyes are burning from crying and feeling a little lost. My dream of being a teacher will not happen unless someone dies and makes me rich.

I got a letter from the counciler this morning, and, well, I'll just let you read it.

Terry, you may want to talk to her about the realities of starting a new major at this point in her academic career. She has 143 attempted hours and I don't know how she's planning to pay for this, but financial aid will cut her off at 145 hours. At 170 hours she will be hit with the Surcharge (have to pay out-of-state tuition). She hasn't even got an associates degree based on what is posted to her transcript and absolutely NOTHING toward and English Teaching major (which is 52 credits). She would also have to have a teaching minor and unfortunately USU doesn't offer a Music Teaching minor so that is a minimum of 18 more credits if she chooses the shortest possible minor. Then she will need to do the certification classes which are another 35 credits. (Total so far = 105 credits!) Again, this doesn't even take in to account the missing math class that she needs and the CI's, QI, DSS, and DSC, that is if we can squeak by with 2 credit breadth classes in some of the areas. (The College of HASS is getting more strict about students meeting the minimum number of credits within the breadth categories.) ...As I said, to be fair to Melissa I cannot, in good conscience, encourage her to embark on a new major at this point in her academic career. She needs to finish the one that she started or find a shorter major unless she is COMPLETELY AWARE of the strong possibility of the financial burden that it may hold for her. I don't think that the cost that she will pay for a teaching degree will pay off for her in the end. Lisa

Well, that about sums it up. Where God closes a door, he opens a window but I'm not feeling any breeze yet.

Good morning folks! It's Free Friday once again and I just finished working out downstairs. I did take a nice soak in the tub too. I love my life.

This picture is one I took out my back door. I love where I live. I feel so serene and peaceful here. I am feeling so blessed today.

I have been doing this colon cleanse Kevin Trudeau recommends. I really like it. I am never hungry and I have lost a pound a day doing it. This morning I had a fruit smoothy I made out of peaches, strawberries and apples. It was so good. So many of the diets I have done say "no fruit" type stuff. This is not a diet but is helping in that area!

I am not a vegetarian but this cleanse is all fruits and veggies. No meat, dairy or anything that clogs the system. I can do it anywhere from 3 to 7 days. I can't even begin to describe how good my body feels already. I feel lighter. Not in poundage but something else. I don't know how to describe it.

Everyone desreves this feeling. I know there are women out there that need to change their health habits. They know they do. Why don't they? I think it is because they don't think they deserve it. You DO deserve to feel and look beautiful. You DESERVE it! Plus, you CAN do it. So many women don't think they are capable. YOU ARE! It's a choice. You can change your life. Why don't you want to? Because You don't deserve it? Silly !!!! You are loved and needed! Please love yourselves enough too.

I was watching Oprah the other day and there was a lady on that went from over 500 lbs down to 2 something and how it changed her life and all the things she worried about from worrying that she'd break a chair if she sat in it to not fitting in an airplane were gone! They filmed her in all her amazement doing things she couldn't do before

What changed in her? What made the difference? I don't know. But she deserves to feel sexy which she says she does now. Men flirt with her. She doesn't get tired and her feet and legs don't hurt anymore. It made me cry. What an inspiration she is to so many people. Especially women.

I really feel that God sent us here to succeed! Not to fail.! He wants us to be happy and free of the guilt and misery we make for ourselves. Some things can't be helped but ALOT of things can be. I don't know why I am writing this today but I fell compelled. I am not alway good at loving myself but today, I am!

I hope you all have a fabulous weekend! Love to you all.

I'm tagged

How often do you blog? I read blogs every day. I blog maybe 2-4 times a week.

2. Online Alias:Don't have one. I'm boring as hell.

3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? Yes. At SUU. She was a polygamist gal. My age. We had to pick partners and the girls behind were being rude. I picked her and then turned around and loudly, enough to embarrass them, told them they should be ashamed of themselves and how rude to act the way they were. It shut them up for a long time.

4. What do you do most often when you are bored? Read. Watch tv. I really like “Charmed lately. Sick, isn't it?

5. When bathing, which do you wash first? My left arm and armpit, then the right and them I shave them. Them my chest and belly and legs. My behind last. Too much info?

6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? I don't know. Never kept track

7. What color looks best on you? White. Love white. Love black too. Red is also a good one.

8. What’s your favorite drink? Milk. I know, a little juvenile, but I love the stuff.

9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? I believe in life after death. I think hell is mostly a place we make for ourselves here on earth. I think everyone will be happy wherever they go except those who were REALLY naughty!

10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? It's about the same I think.

11. What was your favorite subject in school? In college I loved anatomy. Still do. In high school, I loved music stuff. Choir, Jr high, NOTHING!! Elementary, PE definitely!

12. Are you a perfectionist? No way! Thank heavens! I have a hard enough life as it is.

13. Do you spend more than you can afford? Of course not! My husband thinks I do though!

14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have love before? Oh, the pain! But yes, I still reminisce sometimes.

15. Do you consider yourself creative? Yes, but I don't know how to be. I think I block myself. I tell myself I can't do it and when I do, it turns out great.

16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? Sometimes.

17. Do you donate time or money to charities? Yes, but lately, not often.

18. Have you recently done something that you’ve criticized others for doing? Oh yes, who hasn't? I can't think of anything at the moment but I'm sure Lisa could!

19. What’s on your mind? Taking H to preschool. I need to leave in 15 min. I love this time a year. I love the way it smells. I am big on smells.




I tag: Yolanda. I need something different to read on your blog!!! I need you to post something new every couple of days. OK?

Ophilia: you know who you are! Get with it!

Sister K. Stop being silent! I want to hear your thoughts too.

Lisa got the rest I think. I love our little blogging family!

This book has been a facinating ride. Yolanda send over the address for the consumer report on Kevin Trudeau. Very interresting. I wondered why every comment was so negative. Don't they ever print good comments?

I know there have to be more people out there who, like me, have had a good experience. When someone is so vehemently attacked like this, it really makes me think they are innocent.

It reminds me alot of Joseph Smith to be honest. He was called all sorts of names. Accused of lying, stealing, whoremongering, sexual addiction and a host of other things you all already know about. No one wanted to read his gold bible that he made up and his reputation was forever tainted in the world out there. And still is. That is amazing to me.

Now, I don't know if all the government cover ups are true but it wouldn't surprise me. I have not read his first book. I am reading the second. He was accused of not putting answers in his books. That is rediculus. There ARE answers. The truth is, most people are not willing to do what he recommends.

Most people are not willing to quit putting sh-- in their bodies. He putt his "infamous chapter six" in the second book and it tells you step by step how to start. Most people don't want to quit eating sugar, white flour, eating fast food, sweeteners and meat sold in stores. The meat in our stores is so full of hormones an other crap that young girls are developing more rapidly than ever before. I knew that before I read his book.

Most people don't want to do yoga, and other things to reduce stress. He even talks about the importanace of prayer and praying every day and the power it has to heal.

He has you do cleanses that clean out your bowels, liver, kidneys ect....

He talks about how cancer has been proven not to be able to live in an oxygen rich inviroment and the more alkaline our bodies become, the less chance we'll get and keep cancer. The toxins in our bodies are what make us very, very acidic.

It is basically the word of wisdom broken down in detail. God doesn't want us to be sick and then stuffing ourselves full of drugs that make us more sick!. It really is common sense. I think the evil forces out there don't want people to be healthy or get better. It's all about money. You can buy anything in this world with money. Sound familiar?

I share this because I believe he is right. Our bodies are temples. We NEED to be more concerned about what we put on ourselves and feed ourselves. The last quote I'll give you today is this, "don't put it on your skin if it can't go in your mouth". Our skin absorbes everything we put on it. It makes sense that if you can't eat it, chances are it's not good for you!

Enough of this soap box. I am getting a head ache! Got to go makes lunches and breakfast! I sure love you all! Have a fabulous day!

I am about to discuss a very conroversial subject here. I can not in good faith keep my mouth shut.

I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me. I truly believe in the phrase "ignorance is bliss".

I happened to check out the book, "More natural cures revealed" by Kevin Trudeau. I have been facinated and appauled by what I have read. I have not just read this book, I have been researching what he talks about on the internet.

He talks about alot of things but what I want to focus on here is immunizations. I will say it here and now. I no longer believe in immunizations. I am not afraid or embarrased to say this.

Immunizations contain a preservative called "Thimerosal". It is 50% murcury in weight. It is linked to all kinds of disabilities in children. If you want to read a little about it, here is just one of the web sites on it. OK, I can't get it to work. Just google it.

I have been putting poison in my my kids since the day they were born. There are more kids with cancer today than EVER before. Do we wonder why? How can I in good conscience give my kids something that I know is bad for them. Plus, more children are injured or dead because of the immunizations we use today.

The government does not care. The cancer industry is big business for them! Kevin talks about quite a few "cures" for cancer. Natural remedies that have worked. He is constantly being sued buy the Federal trade commision and Pharmicuetical companies for what he says. He has been aquitted every time.

Don't believe me about this. Or him. Look it up!

He also talks about an ingredient in all our beauty supplies that is a cancer causing agent. It is "propylene glycol". "They" know this and other chemicals are dangerous and yet are still used. This particular ingredient has been used since the beginning in the early 1900's. It was grandfathered which is why it is still used! We put this poison on our faces, in our hair, on our skin ect... Have you ever wondered why cancer is at an all time high? Why? With all the technology we have. Go into your bathroom today is see that it is in your shappo and conditioner, you skin care. The "laural sulfate" ingredient is also caner causing. It is in quite a few bathroom items too.

The pharmicuetical companies don't want a cure. The cancer industry is a billion dollar indrustry. They'd go bankrupt if there was a world wide cure!

Don't believe me. Look it up. Read this guys books and then research it.

I will not continue to live like I have. I cannot in good conscience put this stuff on me or my family any more. I am going organic. I do not feel like I am going over board. I feel like I should stand up for what is right and protect my family.

I will no longer follow blindly, like a sheep.