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Monday, December 01, 2008
What is wrong with me this year? I can't quite figure it out but I can't seem to get myself excited for the season. It's the first of December and I don't even feel like putting up the tree. It's not that fun anymore because I know I'll have to do it all myself. The kids help but they are too little to do some things. I don't know. Maybe it's just me.
Bry is busy doing things that need to be done an it just seems like I get stuck with it every year. "Stuck with it" sounds terrible, doesn't it? But that's just where I am.
Maybe it will get better as the season wears on.
Bry and I went over our budget this morning and man, was that depressing. I won't go into details but I will say, I was right! I knew we needed to be depositing a little more each month and he didn't want to. I've cut spending everywhere I can without losing things like internet and some tv. But even Bry was complaining that there is nothing good to watch anymore! lol I've whittled it down to practically nothing!
Anyway, I do have money for Christmas gifts. I have that set aside so at least we can buy a few fun things for the kids but it will be a lean year. That's ok. I actually like it better that way. I have noticed that the older your kids get, the harder it is. Everything Jacob wants is over a hundred dollars. I wont spend that much. Sorry Charley!
So, there's my humbug for the day. It's probably just hormones. I'll feel better tomorrow. =-)