What a day

What a morning! It seems all my kids have gone through this 2 day flu. This morning, Gabe got up saying he threw up in his bed. Then I found out that it was his pillow and it was only a little wet.

Then he said that Heidi had put water on his pillow. I swear, that kids never tells the truth. He's only four though so I cut him a little slack. As the morning wore on, he claimed he wasn't sick anymore. So I gave him breakfast and as I loaded the dishwasher, he stood up, and started projectile vomiting!!!

I started screaming for him to run to the bathroom. He left a trail all the way there! Unbelievable!

I am so sad about this. Because not only do I have a sick child, but my dear friend Natasha is in town to pack her house up. She has moved to Wyoming as her husband got a job there. I was going to help her pack and clean. We don't get to see each other often anymore so this brought me down.

I have really missed her and have been pretty depressed about her move. It was really sudden and I have been in mourning. She is that friend that you call up every time you go shopping. We always went everywhere together and I REALLY miss it! I have no desire to even shop anymore! lol. But seriously, it has been super hard. It feels like someone has died. They are just gone, suddenly. I cry about it all the time. For a while I was really angry. I guess I'm just going through the stages.

Denial: She is coming back. There is no way in hell she would want to live in a camper for the next year in Wyoming for pete's sake!!

Anger: What the crap is she thinking? This is not right and she is making a big mistake!! How could she be so stupid?! I can't wait to say I told you so!

Bargaining: Please God, Bring her back and I will never sin again! I need her! Don't you care about me?

Depression: I cry all the time, no motivation. Try to fill up my time writing and playing Warcraft. Poor kids have an ornery mom.

Acceptance: I understand. She needs to be with her husband. Husbands take precedence after all. I would do the same. (NOT!! No way would I EVER live in a camper with 5 kids!) We can still keep in touch in all the usual ways. It will be OK.

I don't believe I go through these stages all in order. Or at least, I seem to feel them at the same time or backtrack. Needless to say. I'm grieving.

So, today I will go on as usual because I have to. Because that is what I do.