What a week! Our Shi Tzu (sp?) had 2 little puppies on Wed. A boy and a girl. SO cute. Tash's dog is the father and she is taking one but hasn't decided which yet. I'll sell the other for $400 if anyone is interested. They are half Shi tzu and half Yorkie/Maltese. Her last batch was so cute too. It is a good mix. It gets rid of the problems most pure breads have.

Then, on Thurs, I went to temple square with My sister who was visiting and her new boyfriend. He is a golden contact and I honestly think there is a good chance he will join the church. We saw the Joseph Smith movie which I cried clear through of course. We Had lunch in the Garden Restaurant, and toured the grounds. It was really neat. I haven't done that in a while.

One funny thing. We decided to tour the Bee hive house where Brigham Young lived and we were in that first room where people could ask questions before you start the tour and there was this guy at the back who started asking questions like, "How many wives did Brigham have?" and "I heard Joseph smith had 49 wives" and was just sounding a little antagonistic. The 2 missionary sisters did well under the barrage but when He finally asked, "If they brought polygamy back would you do it???" The missionaries just stood there all quiets so I chimed in. I raised my hand and said, "Heck ya, I would. Think of all the help you'd get with baby sitting, cooking, laundry. It would be great!" Eveyone laughed and it diffused the moment. We started the tour, and I stayed between my little investigator and that guy! Like a big mama bear! But it turned out ok. I honestly don't have problems with questions on polygamy. They don't bother me at all. Ya, we practiced it, ya, there are bad rumors about some of the things that happened, ya, there were people who abused it and yes, there were some really good stories about it too. No big deal.

We went to Hardware ranch the next day and played "Settlers" as much as we could. What a fun weekend and my kids loved R, the new boyfriend. I hope she keeps this guy.

I feel guilty because my neck was hurting and I didn't feel good so I skipped church. I always feel like I am sluffing when I could have forced myself to go! Oh well. Have a great week folks!

A good start

It's over!! The PMS or PMDD what ever it is...It's gone! I love that! Plus, Bry took his new cough suppressant and we slept all night!! THAT alone, makes me feel wonderful! Plus, to top it all off, I haven't run in a week. Since my last post about it and yes....I did it again.

I was worried I wouldn't be able to run a mile again. That it was a fluke. I did it. I run a 12 min mile which is very slow in the runners world but that can be changed once I get to where I want to be.

So, I am starting the day off in a great way. Now I am off to the dentist. I have a cavity for the first time in years. He said it looks like a previous (of course) dentist nicked the tooth next to the one he had been filling and it had slowly decayed in that spot. Nice.

He also said my silver fillings are loosening and asked me if I wanted to replace all of them at the same time and just get it over with. Why not? So off I go. Wish I had a valium. But then I wouldn't be able to drive there!

Just the smell of a dentists office makes me uptight! Oh well, if I can force myself to run on a treadmill and I can give birth naturally, I can overcome my fear of the dentist! Go figure! I'll let you know what happens!

I was reading Jeri's post and I love how she does a weekly gratitude entry. I think I need to do that today because to be honest, I feel really depressed right now.

I know it is hormonal. I get PMDD I think. I say "I think" because I have never been officially diagnosed but I don't need a man to tell me I feel like @$%&.

Anyway, part of the problem is I am not getting sleep. My husband has now had a really bad cough that seems to act up only at night. It lasts from about 2 on. I am starting to get mad. He won't make an appointment with the doctor of course and it just keeps going. I think he may have walking pneumonia or something.

I finally made an appointment for him although it really irritates me that I have to do it. He teases me when I do things like this and says "You're not my mother". I could go on from here with something really good but I would regret it later!!!

So, here I sit at 6am. I have been up since about 4 probably. I soaked in the tub, finished my book, the guardian, which was so good and came back in to do this.

It will hit me later how tired I am and I will feel like crap for the rest of the day. I have had a hard time getting any running in because It is either too dark when I am up or I am too tired by the time it's light enough.

I better stop because I feel my anger rising as I think about it! lol

So, good morning, good day, and good night.

The Guardian

I am reading a new book (of course). I never stop reading. I am ALWAYS reading something. My latest affair is with this book. It is not the story of the coast guard like the movie.

It is about a woman who's husband has died and meets a guy, decides he's not the one for here and ends up falling for one of her best friends. The first guy turns out to be psycho. She had a great Dane who protects her and loves her as though he is the guardian spirit of her dead husband. The wacko guy stalks her and has wild conversations with himself. It's amazing that there really are guys out there like this.

It is very well written; I love it and and can't lay it down. The plot is gripping and fast paced. The twists are fascinating and well, lets just say, I'm really enjoying it. Of course, It will probably end predictably but it is still a very good read.

Check it out.

A Milestone

As my title here says, I hit a milestone today. You know, one of the moments you work so hard for, dream of, cry over. Something you want so bad that you do everything you can to make it happen.

This morning, I ran a mile! That does NOT include the warm up or cool down. In fact, I did it in 11 min. (give or take a few seconds). THIS IS HUGE!!! I have been working for 5 and a half years to be able to run.

I have had SO many obstacles to overcome to get here. Why do I want to run so bad? I don't know!!! I do know that I have had a taste of how it makes you feel. I loved that short few months when I actually did it.

I am thrilled! That first mile is the very hardest to get to. Once you are there, it is much easier to keep it up but man, that mile can seem straight up hill!

There is a song that describes how I am feeling right now. Here it is...

A Piece of Sky

"Tell me where...Where is it written what it is I'm meant to be.
That I can't dare.....

It all began the day I found that from my window I could only see a piece of sky.
I stepped outside and looked around, I never dreamed it was so wide
or even half as high.

The time had come to try my wings and even though it seemed at any moment I could fall I felt the most amazing things. The things you can't imagine if you've never flown at all.

Though it's safer to stay on the ground, sometimes where danger lies there the sweetest of pleasures are found. No matter where I go there'll be memories that tug at my sleeve. But there will also be more to be more to question, yet more to believe.

Oh tell my where...where is it written what it is I'm meant to be?

The more I live, the more I learn. The more I learn the more I realize the less I know. Each step I take, each page I turn, Each mile I travel only means the more I have to go. What's wrong with wanting more? If you can fly then soar! With all there is.....Why settle for...... just a piece of sky???"


You really have to hear the song to truly get the passion I feel when I hear it. It is sung by Barbara Streisand and is from her movie "Yentl"


So..there it is! If you have a goal, GO FOR IT!!! DO NOT give up because it seems hopeless! I can't tell you how many times I have cried when I tried to run and couldn't! Don't let anyone tell you "you cant' or you shouldn't" or that it is not possible or worth it! They don't know the path you should take! YOU do! You alone!

My prayer today is that we are able to love each other and encourage each other to be the best we can be! Good luck and God speed you on your way to your dreams!