Happy Birthday Seth!

Happy Birthday Seth!!! He's the big "8" today!! What a special age!

We love this boy so much! I hope I have made it clear how much I adore him (to him)! He had his first piano lesson on Monday and loved it! He is a fun and very loving brother.

He is always comforting anyone who gets hurt or who is crying. He loves puzzles and reading and loves to play on the computer.

He loves music but he does not love singing in primary. I have never figured that one out!

He is a vital part of our family and we love him so much!!!!

Bry and I went to the hospital on our date night tonight. Guess who was there at the time. Yep, the birth mom. And funny thing.... as soon as I saw her, all my anger melted away. We sat down and just talked. It was a great visit and we were able to be very honest with each other. She was worried that I had only taken the baby because we had Gabe and didn't really want him. She was relieved to know that we really wanted him and she was really relieved when she had found out he would be with our family.

She really is a very sweet person and I do believe she has a good heart if she can get straightened out.. It wouldn't surprise me if she asked us to keep Gus. I asked her about the name and she said she liked it because of the character named Augustus in Lonesome Dove.

Anyway, I am glad we met up with her and had the chance to talk like we did. I think it will all work out in the end. Sometimes it is hard to accept because we want what we want.

we went out to eat at Ruby Tuesday afterward. Man, what good food.

I saw my baby today. It has been a couple of days since I have been able to go. I hate it when it's like that. I would like to go every day but it just isn't realistic. So I went this morning and noticed that the birth mother had come in to see the baby.

I know it sounds awful but it made me mad. I don't think she is supposed to be able to even see him unsupervised and I just feel like she didn't care about this baby before it was born, could possibly have really screwed him up with her drug use, and now wants the privilege of seeing him. The case worker is out of town so I will have to wait until Monday to talk to her but this bothers me.

She just got out of jail and supposedly has had all rights t0 her kids taken away. The father isn't even supposed to be able to come see him so why can she? AND no one stops her at the hospital. Now she and I became close while I had Gabe and I have never kept her away from him but to be honest, I don't want her to visit Gus. (Yes, that is what she named him. I think it's awful.) Does that sound terrible? I think it does but at the same time, I feel like he is mine and she doesn't deserve him! My feelings may be totally out of line but this is the truth about how I feel about it. I try never to lie. Too often.

So what do you all think of that? Am I going to hell? If I am it will just be another thing to add to my list of many sins. I have baskets and baskets of them!!!!

Anyway, he is now 5 lbs and 8oz. They have taken him off oxygen and he is doing great! He just needs to eat all his meals by bottle before they let me take him! I am getting antsy. I talk to Gabe about him all the time and he doesn't seem too happy about a new baby. I am a little worried. We'll see what happens!

"8" meme

Lisa tagged me to do the 8 unexpected things that happened on our family reunion camp out. I don't think there were 8 things but here goes.

1. Let's see, I found out after the fact that our 3 three year olds filled the slot you pay for your spot with, with water. I don't know how that could happen since they were NEVER out of our sights! Right!

2. Seth actually had more fun playing with his girl cousins than the boys. Granted there are no boy cousins his age but he usually liked tagging around with the big boys in the past.

3. Gabe kept me awake all three nights. (was that really a surprise?)

4. I got along with all my sisters and had no problems with any of them. That is new!

5. My one sister got drunk on the first night I was there. That was a first for me to see. I told her that she had been no fun and that I didn't even recognize who had inhabited her body and that I hoped she didn't do that again and she didn't.


6. Bryan was hardly ever there. Between working and feeding our animals at home, he was pretty much a figment of my imagination. Can't decide if that was a surprise or not.

7. I had ice until the very end. Amazing!

8. The bathrooms were relatively clean. That is always nice.

I tag....Yolanda, Tash, Jewel, Josi, Jen, Mel, Charlotte and Jeri!

We are back. It was a pretty fun camp out. For the most part. The kids had a blast. We grown ups played "Settlers" most of the time. I never slept very good. But that is to be expected for me.

I wish I could write in more detail but too many family member read this! But to sum it all up, it was mostly fun!

Bry and I went and saw the baby last night. He is now 5 lbs. and 3 oz. Doing great.

I think the older us girls(me, and my sisters) get, the more bitchy we become. I don't know if it is old age or just being more set in our ways. I'm not pointing fingers, I am no different really than they are, but it bothers me. I also don't like the fact that I recognize that I tend to be lazy, and compare my situation to theirs. I don't want to feel like a defeatist but I think I am sometimes. Bummer.

All in all, growing up is hard to do. I can't stand being around negative people who complain or gossip all the time and yet, I find myself doing it once in a while. I guess it is all about becoming a better person. As far as becoming a better person, I don't know if I am growing in that direction but at least I recognize my faults. That is a start!