Today I am packing up the camper for my side of the family's camp out. We will only be about 20 minutes from my house! I like that idea! I am trying to phych myself up for it. I don't know why but I am not totally pumped about it.

Maybe I am just tired. I am always a little apprehensive about spending weekends with the fam. You just never know what wonderful and exciting things may happen.

I looks like it may be about a week before the baby gets to come home. I will let you know. I can't wait!!!

Wish me luck this weekend. I am a little hormonal right now and am afraid of myself! I will keep a cool head. I will keep a cool head....I will keep a cool head. This is my mantra.

I just finished Harry Potter. LOVED IT! Loved the whole thing. As someone who is trying to write a book myself, I could see the genius in this story. What I would like to know is how she comes up with such intricate details. I mean, my word, where do these ideas come from? I would love to be able to write like that. It is much trickier than people know.

Anyway, I loved it. I am always sad when it is over. I always look forward to the new book but I think she ended it wonderfully!

So, I visited my baby this morning at 6am! Yes that's right, 6am!! Bry woke me up early and I couldn't go back to sleep so I figured I would just get up and go or I wouldn't be able visit him today. He is doing great! He is 4 lbs, and 13 oz. now. Such a big boy!

Yesterday Bry went with me and we got there in time to give him a bath and then bry fed him. It was beautiful and a really neat day. Church was sooo good. I love those days where you cry clear through the whole thing!

So, that is my day. I am taking the kids swimming today if I can keep my eyes open!

Show Boat!

Charlotte left me free tickets to see showboat last night! She works for the opera company in Logan.

THE SHOW WAS WONDERFUL!!!!! Thank you my dear! I took my sister and niece who are staying with me and a neighbor who never get to do that sort of thing. I had an extra ticket and we were on our way and there she was outside watering her plants when the thought hit me that we should take her!

So I pulled over, jumped out of the car and told her she had 5 minutes to change! She ran in and ran out so excited!

It was a wonderful night and the voices.....oh the voices were.....angelic. Especially the man who sang "Old man river". He ought to make a cd. They were all great though. I want season tickets now!

Thank you again Charlotte. What a rare gift that was!

I should write something new and wonderful. I am just SO tired! I haven't been sleeping well and have been so busy that I swear, I just fall into bed!

I can now see the baby any time I want. I am now the legal guarding of my beautiful new baby boy! I have decided to name him Jonah. It really fits him. I hope to adopt him but if not, it is better to have loved and lost......

I put up a wall with Gabe and it has been hard turning it around but I am doing it slowly but surely! So with this baby, I will just assume he will be mine and if he is not, I will just have a broken heart.

Anyway, I need to fall into bed! So, good night!

New Baby.

What a beautiful experience! Look at my beautiful baby!

He was so adorable and small! He is 3 lbs and 11oz now. He will probably be there for at least another month.

I can't wait until I go back. They are rushing my licensing through since I let it expire and I have to go visit him with the case worker until I am official. What a pain because she can't go again until Tues! Anyway, I adore him already!