hello and goodbye!

I haven't written for a few days (obviously). It has been an up and down week, I'll tell you! We are leaving on our family trip of the summer and to make a long story short, the hubby decided he didn't have time to go on a trip at the last minute when we had been planning for months.

Well, you can probably guess how that conversation went if you know me well at all. To make a long story short, he has changed his mind. Lucky for him.

We leave Friday to get Jake and then go camping next week at a lake in Wyoming that is so beautiful but I can't remember what it is called.

Tash came over today, and you know, she makes that awesome jewelry, well, my sister was here and I had told Tash to bring her stuff and wow! S couldn't but enough! Loved it and had Tash make her some right then!

I was making curtains for my new, old camper and in the middle, my extremely expensive 65 dollar sewing machine broke! Dang! Lisa said she'd bring over hers and I am still waiting Lisa!!!! You better not forget me!!

Anyway, I am tired and want to relax so I think I will go play my heathen computer game! love you all! Bye!

Oh my word!!! Get this! I opened up the dryer and I saw red! Literally. To make a long story short, Heidi had given Seth my dark red fingernail polish FOR SOME REASON and he had put it in his pocket. It was fine going through the wash I guess but had opened up in the dryer!


Believe me, I was furious! Mostly because I should have checked his pockets and didn't. He is famous for leaving stuff in his pockets. It didn't take long to get the truth out of them and I made Seth clean it up. He used my whole bottle of polish remover to do it too!. Man!

Luckily it was mostly his stuff that was ruined! Mostly old play clothes and NOTHING of mine was ruined because luckily I didn't have anything nice in that batch. He is very lucky too because.... well, I'll leave it to your imaginations!

I finished Jake's room today. He is in South Dakota visiting family you know, and I wanted to surprise him because his room was the only one I never got to when I re-painted and redecorated the whole house at Christmas. I did it in an army theme. I painted it two colors of tan which looks really good and bought a quilt set at Walmart with a quilt that is reversible and has a bed skirt and pillow shams to match. I bought the appliques to put on the walls and a throw pillow for his bed that goes with the decor! I also sewed him curtains to match. They came out a little crooked and that bugs me but maybe he won't notice that small detail. It looks SO good! He will be so happy and surprised! I hope!

It is amazing how just a little time makes something that was plain and boring, beautiful and fun. It was not hard work, just time consuming. And only a little time at that.

So that is what I have been doing. I would take a picture but I am too tired today!

What a fabulous Day!I got up and made apple Cinnamon pancakes, scrambled eggs, and bacon for breakfast. We left for the Honeyville parade which was small but the kids got so much candy that I actually through some of it away! Naughty mommy!

The whole fan damly came up for the park fun which you can see here. There were pie eating contest, and a contest to catch live trout in a pond with your bare hands, and all sorts of other fun. I got sunburned there!

We came home to our house and for the first time in ages, all 5 of us girls were together! We basically played "Settlers" all day and in the evening, had a bar b que. Ike is the dog you see here. He is my sister's dog. He smiles. Can you see it? I am in the background.

These were the fireworks that night. They were fabulous! They went on steadily for a half hour! With wonderful music. I kept thinking that this had to be it and then it would keep going! The family loved it. No one could believe how long and wonderful they were! LOVE that!

Seth here, was in the pie eating contest next to his cousin. He barely at the top crust! I think he just wanted the pie and couldn't care less if he won or not!

What a great day. The food, fun and family were all perfect. I love a good holiday!

This last picture is of the boys on the ride home. It was after 11:00pm and they were tired and ornery! A good way to end the day!

The land of the free

What wonderful women you all are! How I love you! How I love your support! I'm sure we all have days like I did on Sunday. My pitty party is over though so thank you!

Tomorrow is the 4th! It is my all time favorite! There is something wonderful about it for me. Not just what it means. The freedoms we enjoy and the wonderful men and women out there working to keep it that way but just the ambiance of the day.

The hot summer smell, bar-b-q's, the smell of the sun on the grass, the smell of runners coming over the finish line at the local 5k race, the smell of horses in the parade, the smell of the fireworks exploding overhead. I love it all! I have a very sensitive smeller and I have always been affected physically and mentally by the smells around me.

When I am pregnant it is awful but like now, when farmers cut their alphapha, I love to roll my window down to let it waft in.

The 4th has an affect that makes me feel nostalgic. Like a kid again. It's all about fish ponds and pie eating contests! I LOVE IT!!!

Plus, my b -day is in July, and then there is the 24th which is a lot like the 4th all over again! It is the best month of the year!

I hope your holiday is as wonderful as I anticipate mine being!!

What a day. The play was a success! It was a blast and so much fun. I think I am a little depressed it is over. I became so close to those people.

Today, in relief society, I was sitting in my seat that I had used for Sunday school. All the men had left and women were filing in. I was reading a book a lady had brought for her lesson. "Doctrines of Salvation". Anyway, I had never read it and I was fascinated with it.

When I looked up, The whole room was full. Almost every seat was filled except for my row. I was the only one on it. I was sitting in the second chair in. I sat there alone looking around at all my "friends".

I had to admit, I was surprised. I have lived in this ward for 5 years now. I am usually the one who always reaches out and is friendly to other people and now, when I had not been to one to reach out, I sat alone. Now, I could be a little hormonal but it hurt my feelings.

I have tried to have close relationships with some of the gals in my ward who I really like. It never took. I realize people are busy and I would just brush it off as that. Today, I feel like feeling sad about it. I can see why there are people who go inactive when they feel unwanted in their ward.

Just so you have a little history, I have grown up in the church, I have always had a strong testimony and I am a returned missionary, sealed in the temple etc.... Yet today, I wished I had never gone to church . I was more depressed by the time I got home then I had been in a long time.

This is not something that has just happened for the first time. It happens all the time. Our ward has also grown so fast that I swear I don't know half the people anymore. I guess I just feel like I don't fit in and I am tired of trying to make friends where it is one sided.

I have only 2 really close friends. 2 other women who feel as close as sisters. Who I can truly be myself with. That is fine by me. I don't have time for more then that. I guess I just wish.....well, I don't know what I wish. Maybe I just wish that I felt more wanted in my ward. Wanted for me. Not just my voice, as in the choir wants me to always show up.

I'm tired. Just plain tired. I think I should go to bed before I incriminate myself any more!